Have you ever wonder why we do the things we did? Or think about consequesnces before the actions are done?

Often we try to find laughter by forgetting the littlest sorrows. And yet those little things are what makes life sparkle. We tend to look for solace in imagination. All because reality doesn't go how you want it to go. We try so hard to accomplish something, to find out at the end of the day it is ruin. We are always trying to be a better person. No one seem to acknowledge how unique each and everyone is. At other times we crave for justice, knowing that when manic mind and emotions are involved, nothing is ever just. We often avoid something that leaves a mark, thinking that it would be better in time. Perhaps, if you don't make initiative, it never will. We know that we can't control our emotions only our actions. And yet we make irrational actions.

What is it that one seek from the people around? Is it acceptance? Or self completion? Comfort? Or perhaps just plainly happiness? What we seek differs from each other. You deny you long for something from others. Maybe you won't even realise what it is that you long for. You make a mission out of life. To achieve your own written goal. Some can survive being themselves while trying. Others throw away their sense of self to achieve what they think is the right thing to do. What is the right thing to do anyway? Because one right might be a wrong for the opposite side.

A questionable path. I'm not the only one in it.

Ps- On jdrama,jap movie and manga marathon (oguri!) Late night sleep and strained eyes stimulated this mind to think.Being emo and sad over a manga (hint: it starts with N ends with O. Can't stop reading it now) .Serously sedih kalau kmu baca chapter 400,401 and 402. I never thought... ='( Can one really throw away his self just so someone he loves can be in peace?