This and that and a lot.

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I miss...some things.

a lot.

i really do. ='(

I wanna go shopping too....

Kursus kemahiran rumah tangga.

Second day of orientation. For me still nothing much. I'm just pretty excited with the library. And the private room /kirai in the library. I need to use it often bah eh.. so that i won't be distracted from my studies. =p I've never really been a library person but the library's seriously awesome. So peeps...you'll find me mornings reading the current affairs at floor one. And the rest of the time near the 'biology' section. Or in the private room canoodling..oops =p nadabah. They don't allow two person in one room. Not even between the same gender. They do have a room for threesome /kirai. hahahaha. What is wrong with two in one room?? And they allowed three in one?? bah take a form. U'll need one if you want to be in my private room =p=p

On a serious note. I really do plan to use it a lot. Perhaps studies can distract me from the lot of things in my mind. And from missing others.

I am so sorry i have no pictures to offer. Q, R, Z and i were busy trying to look like a serious undergraduate in front of the camera(s). Noo we are not vain. We're just simply trying to give them a good shot for their collection. haha. And yes i am interested in the Kursus kemahiran rumah tangga. kan tambah 'skill' ku. Ikut kursus rumahtangga lu barutah jatuh cinta. hahahahaha.

On a random note. I hope i survive through the sport challenge esok. FZ has done little for my fitness (especially when i have been escaping my natural runner for nearly two weeks. And besides i am there as a moral support for si Kerol Firdaus saja. spaya bdnnya jadi sexy =p). i hate parking at UBD. that is why B is picking us girls up. Sebab kami mahasiswi pemalas parking.

Kepada Nurul Adibah dan seluruh rakyat brunei. Ingat lah...

'just a friend' can always turn into LOVE. =p

gehehehe.. hang tuaah~ haha. As for me. I'll find a friend. Or let the friend find me. Or whatever works. I'll do my kursus dulu. hahahahahahaha. dan yang selebihnya. biar msa menentukan. Dan sebelum itu terjadi... saya akan terus mencari specimen lelaki untuk di eksperimentasi. NADA ANI BA. NADA. gila mun nada miani aaa... concentrate bnr ku ne blajar.=p=p haha. bah slm mlm.

Mahasiswa/i ??

About the orientation, just read B's or D's or Z's or everyone who went to it. =)

One of the first thing someone told me when i entered the Chancellors hall yesterday- 'ko ganya ni ah. durang gengmu banyak belayar.... inda pa sama jua cam kami tu. ko sama kami ja.' so yeah. It was kind of exciting to start school but it seems that yesterday when someone i know saw me they think and mention about how almost everyone i am close to will be going abroad and are already studying abroad. When i think about it. It is true. Hmm. I hate to say. but there is no them in my new school and that makes first day of school lack on a lot of things. I just want this orientation week over and start lectures. And not to mention ECAs. Either Kembara or that Korean culture ( so that this girl in Brunei will not miss out on a lot when the two plans on a Korean trip). but it'll most prolly be Kembara.

About my minor courses.. sigh. Maths and Chem does not interest me as much as Bio does. And i didn't take physics in my alevel years. So lets just see what its gonna be. I plan to surprise myself. Haha. BAH. when are they gonna give us the module? Biomed student have theirs already. The PMUBD people told us to be active. haha and i can't wait to be active. aku mau languages banarrr.

And one more thing. I have not found any interesting male specimen ubd. Well... there were a thousand plus in the hall so there has got to be a couple of interesting male specimen to stalk. But none so far. So i'm gonna lay low. =p=p unlike Nurul Adibah who has got a Hang Tuah among a thousand plus of students. HAHAHA.

bah i still have a lot of forms i have not fill in. For the sake of allowances (that i will go on a diet to save =p) hahaha saya akan mengisi borang ini. Kurus tah ne hahahahaha but just like si Ros said while waiting for me to finish karipap "mun aku ngan kau tiq nada ku dpt kurus ne" (karipap atu exception ba. one of fav ku kali a.)

Buy a popcorn. A ticket. And enjoy.

I watched it twice in the cinema. I didn't want to post about it earlier because i wanted to watched it again and i did. The prequel got me going to the cinema three times and of course i really want to watch this on badly. i give it a full star! because it contains hidden messages between most of the lines and i understood. hehehee. and the second time i watched it was with the gang and someone cried =p hahaha. Ko ne banar. bek plang ku bwa ko liat sepi. Entah entah kau yang teresak tesak.

I'll give this one a 3.5 out of 5. The story line is superb. Brendan fraser is awesome. And the kid actor will grow up to be a really handsome young man =p its just the special effects that bugs me. I am more interested in the Mummy. Its going to be out soon! =D 31st July..i think.

this one a 4 star! i miss Scully and Mulder. Watched this one lastnight after orientation with as usual the fam. It was crazy (as usual) haha. And Scully and Mulder were....kissing. haha would you believe me on that? =p go and watch it. i hate movies or series with gore in it but this is one i would watch till the end. mysteries. and blood. And serial killer. X file is forever awesome. (mind the poster. its in another language)

When its time to rejoice..

Why do i feel sad?

There is no you and you and you and you and you and you in my school. Maybe that's why.I miss.

What word starts with a 'F' and end in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?

This is a little long. but...wanna noe the answer? Keep scrolling down and read. =p= HEHEHE. THIS IS SO FUNNY.

Seorang guru, Cikgu Murni (Umur: 22) menghadapi masalah dengan salah seorang muridnya (Abu). Lalu guru ini bertanya kepada murid tersebut : "Apa sebenarnya masalah awak, Abu?"
Lalu Abu menjawab, "Saya terlalu cerdik untuk berada di darjah 4, kakak saya menduduki UPSR dan saya lebih cerdik dari dia, maka saya seharusnya berada di tempat yang sama juga!". Cikgu Murni dah tak tertahan. Dia bawa Abu ke pejabat pengetua. Sementara Abu menunggu di ruang tamu, Cikgu Murni terangkan keadaan tersebut kepada pengetua. Pengetua mengatakan yang dia akan berikan ujian kepada Abu dan jika Abu gagal menjawab, maka Abu harus kekal di darjah 3 dan berkelakuan baik. Abu dibawa masuk ke pejabat Pengetua dan Cikgu Murni terangkan pada Abu dan Abu bersetuju untuk ambil ujian yang akan diberikan. Pengetua: Apa 3 x 3? Abu: 9 Pengetua: Apa 6 x 6? Abu: 36 Pengetua terus bertanyakan soalan2 berdasarkan tahap pencapaian murid2 UPSR dan si Abu mampu menjawab tiap soalan yang diberikan. Lalu pengetua memandang Cikgu Murni dan berkata, "Saya rasa murid ini sepatutnya berada di darjah 6", Lalu Cikgu Murni berkata pada pengetua, "Saya ada soalan saya sendiri, boleh tak saya ajukan pada Abu?". Pengetua dan Abu bersetuju.

Cikgu Murni: Apa yang lembu ada 4 di badan, tapi saya cuma ada dua?
Abu: (berfikir) Kaki

Cikgu Murni: Apa yang ada di dalam seluar kamu tapi tidak pada seluar saya?
Abu: Saku

Cikgu Murni: Apa yang bermula dengan huruf "K" akhir dengan "A", ianya berbulu, berbentuk oval, nyaman dan mengandungi lapisan nipis keputihan?
Abu: Kelapa

Cikgu Murni: Apakah yang masuk keras dan berwarna "pink", bila keluar lembik dan melekit? Mata Pengetua terbuka luas dan sebelum sempat dia menahan, siAbu terus menjawab.
Abu: Gula-gula getah (Bubblegum)

Cikgu Murni: Apa yang mereka lakukan, lelaki secara berdiri, wanita secara duduk dan anjing secara tiga kaki? Mata Pengetua sekali lagi terbuka sangat2 luas dan sebelum dia sempat hendak menahan si Abu terus menjawab.
Abu: Bersalaman

Cikgu Murni: Baik, sekarang saya akan ajukan soalan berbentuk siapakah saya, okay?
Abu: Baik Cikgu

Cikgu Murni: Awak memasukkan batang kedalam saya. Awak ikat saya untuk saya berdiri. Saya kebasahan sebelum awak. Pengetua kelihatan resah dengan soalan yang diajukan oleh Cikgu Murni.
Abu: Khemah

Cikgu Murni: Jari memasuki saya. Awak menggesel-gesel saya bila awak teringatkan saya. Lelaki idaman akan mendapat saya dahulu. Pengetua semakin resah dan tidak selesa. Lantas terus meneguk segelas Nescafe 3in1.
Abu: Cincin perkahwinan

Cikgu Murni: Saya ada bermacam-macam saiz. Bila saya sakit saya akan meleleh. Bila saya keluar, banyak tisu yang akan digunakan. Bila awak hembuskan saya, akan berasa lega. Sekali lagi pengetua rasa amat resah dengan soalan yang di ajukan oleh Cikgu Murni dan ingin membantah, tapi si Abu mendahuluinya.
Abu: Hidung

Cikgu Murni: Saya batang yang keras. Hujungnya tajam. Saya akan datang dan masuk dengan lajunya.
Abu: Anak panah

Cikgu Murni: Sekarang saya akan ajukan soalan dalam Bahasa Inggeris, okay?
Abu: Okay

Cikgu Murni: What word starts with a 'F' and end in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Abu: Firetruck

Cikgu Murni: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if you dont get it you have to use your hand.
Abu: Fork

Cikgu Murni: What is it that all men have one of. It's longer on some men than on others, the pope does not use his, and a man gives it to his wife after they are married?
Abu: Surname

Cikgu Murni: What part of the man has no bones but has muscles, lots of veins and loves pumping?
Abu: Heart

Pengetua menghembuskan nafas kelegaan bila mendengar jawapan yang diberikan oleh si Abu, lantas berkata "Baik hantar murid ini ke Universiti Malaya; jawapan yang saya fikirkan semuanya salah".

P/s: THE QUESTION NOW IS.... hahahahh miana pikiran kamu time membaca soalan atu? adakah ia a) meriam b) roda c) peluru. =p=p=p Moral of the story: semakin meningkat dewasa, kita menjadi semakin kuning.ngakun tah. HAHAHA.

lets meet up.

not in a good mood for some reasons.

One: Bali. Trip. Convincing. Failed. Damn. i am more upset than you think about the red light on Bali.

Two: maybe its just because skool is starting... nothing seems right.

Three: i'm the type that plans what to do and when it doesn't work out... it upsets and it pisses me. Changes in plan or spontaneous change just annoys me. So whatever it is...next time. kamu tah plan okay. aku manasaja. dripada ku upset bek tah aku ikut ja kan. My bali plan pun inda pass dri tahun lapas. Kan ke Kalimantan or Kuching pun nada org interested. Tekarih ku udah men survey hotel di bali. so hehh wat's the use of planning now.


Mind me. On a lighter note:


I want to meet my best buddies tomorrow before school starts tuesday. because i don't think it will be as easy to see each other when school starts. The first two weeks won't be easy for some of us especially when some of you will be leaving in about three weeks. And then the other one. And then the other and a lot more. So can we meet up?

bah slm mlm. meliat tv ku.

Pretty little sparkles in the air.

In order: Si Ecah, si Ajis, si K, si Dibah, si T, si B and si Lyan.

There were more of us actually but we were separated in the crowds and bad signal! Contacting people was impossible. We did met some of the rest coincidentally at the gerai.

For more pictures read B's, D's and K's. hahaha sanang cani ani eh mcm alphabetical order kawan-kawan ku ne.

bah bah naah one more....

hehehh. The 'sane' ubd trio. and we'll start school soon ler. bah jangan di sukat kaki ku atu arh gmbar ah. mengakun ku aku buntak.

bah out.

i have until now and i will always continue to....

Its been a while.. Remember where it all started? When you and i and everyone else fell in love. Just that one time makes true love seem real? Just that one song makes everyone else yearn for love? And after that you can't go back... You continue to look for more. Day and night without forgetting it. Becoming more and more obsessed. try to look back and see... this one will always be the best. because this is where it all started.




Classic lagu ani. sob. You can still feel the aura.

Walau di lambung tinggi tinggi, hati ku tetap tinggal di sini.

kemarin. Poof. Di atas awan. esuknya. Poof. balik semula. I'm getting used to this...magic. It makes life a little fun. First of all, terima kasih khairulanwarfirdaus. Congrats to my new driver billah. And sorry inda da burger king. harga minyak naik. harga burger pun naik =p haha but knowing me of course i got something. better.

The view from 22nd floor.

At this time of year...they call it the middle east movement because middle east are kinda on holidays or some sort so they came to that place for vacation. Arabs flocked the place. And they turned the place into a little mini Dubai street. Haha hangat bah besampit ah.

While having breakfast this morning at the lounge, i saw this article on Korea's rise and a map of Korea and its neighbouring country including China..I was literally staring at it for sometime, looking at how close China is to Korea and how far China is from Brunei. capi banar adaka bemap lagi tu. We had to depart the hotel by 10+ am so while waiting for mum to come back from work, i watched CNN and sekali!... about 50% of the news content touched on China especially Beijing since its near to the olympics. Its like...China this and Beijing that. CNN even shows some footages of the people and the situation there It was quite interesting to watch because i've never seen how Beijing looks like how life would be over there and other parts of China. But at the same time, its the last thing i'd want to watch because... hmm. Just for this while... i want to forget about what is to come, but it seems i can't even if i force myself to.

Went back at 5pm. i got science class at 7pm. if i'm not tired than i'm not human. I have no idea if the reason is because its only a night... but being here there or anywhere doesn't make a difference to me these days. Maybe its because .... aah u don't need to know. God knows what has been playing in my mind these days. even if i say... you won't really understand anyway.


btw jeles ku ne banar mliat gambar si Rospiana arh ranoadidas dakat si astronaut yang hansem ah. capi!! aku kan liat juaa!! *obsess* issh gila he's like the malay epitome of good brains good looks. kambang banar e. Nites. naleh ku.


Coz i'm still holding a little more.

Kepada orang yang mempost video accident di Limbang. BACA DAN FAHAMI.

I just watched the youtube of the recent terrible accident in limbang that left 5 people dead (3 bruneians).

and all i could say is.... ATAGAFIRULLAHALAZIM!

WHY THE FAK WOULD ANYONE WANT TO VIDEO THE CRASH WITH THE KILLED VICTIMS STILL IN THE CAR while saying "mati ya udah...mati ya udah kan. yatah inda lagi ada tu" over and over again! astagafir.... Walaupun tah inda brapa nampak org dalam atu.. TALUR KALI ORANG VIDEO ATU. have he no sense of sympathy.. Or atleast be POLITE enough to respect the victim and their families. Ada lagi yang menggambar tu. is it fun to take photographic memories of killed victims?? hah??

mental ku ne banar.Kadangnya orang brunei ani lebih talur dari talur. Talur atleast berisi jua putih dan kuning.

mbari marah bah. minta maaf tah ah sapa yang menvideo atu tapi kalau biskita ahli keluarga durang yang terkorban bah... mau biskita orang menggambar2 sama video? yatah ku menyumpah ne biskita awal ani. durang atu bukan plang ahli keluargaku ganya terasa baa apa rasa nya kalau atu tragedi ahli keluarga kamu yang kena video.nauzubillah. menyumpah banar ku ne. Minta maaf tah ah. palui banar perbuatan abiskita atu bah. macam nada perikemanusiaan langsung. inda bisai bah... HORMATI BAH MANGSA ATU. HORMATI DENGAN INDA MEMPOST SAAT SAAT AKHIR MANGSA DI INTERNET. or better yet JANGAN TAH DI VIDEO BAH TU. cuba deeh becek tah kali. berisi masih utak atu?






Anyways Condolences to the family of the victims.


Becareful on the roads. More and more accidents are happening. I saw two in one day! I guess the road is a playground for most drivers now ey. Drive safe. becareful of wet roads. and liat bisai2 orang besignal kemana. Jangan kan melanggar orang. bah kan tido ku pagi udah. i have a flight ticket to grab 2 hours before departure... it seems my life revolves around last minute plans.

I miss flight meals.

You know your day will turn to be an interesting one when..you almost got hit by a stupid pajero in the middle of roundabout (seriously if he didn't brake and screech... god knows what it'll look like.nauzibillah). When another perasan pajero driver bullied us on the road by going slow and braking and playing and yelling "siuk kamu main kan aku atu?" at red trafficlight bila tarang2 si K besignal ah macam nada kami tau langsung kenapa ya cematu. K did nothing to provoke a normal person's anger... only jenis orang perasan suma org sekililingnya menganu iya. (That reminds me of someone). When you know that the brilliant and gorgeous astronaut idol of ours-Shiekh Muzaffar is here in Brunei to give a public lecture for four days!


And when you got back home from giant and recieved a phone call at around 5.30pm after working hours from the mum and she said, "mama ada masalah bah. mama kena suruh ke.....ESUK PAGI" So yes I didn't expect it at all. It was never in our minds or in the plan but it came. And I know she's exremely stressed of going on her own to that place and not being given the chance to reject.


yes you got it. I might be going on board the plane tommorow morning just overnight to somewhere. To where? lets just say...its the last place we'd imagin of going and the last working place..she'd want to go (not with the recent bunch of news and political turmoil)



This time round. I'm not joking. salam.malam.

Its been a long wait since i've longed to land on your heart.

Announcement: if it is confirm by tonight that this will happen. I have an announcement for my best buddies. if not.... apa bleh buat. Inda jua dpt dipaksa. the time will come..

curious kamu psl apa?? unfortunately its not about what u think it is about... =p hehehehh (sapa pikir lain a ketara ta utaknya lain atu =p) bah back to my project. Yg aritu bru trial. Ani kan start ku cuba membuat banar2 nya bah. mudahan tah menjadi sblm drg belarai. kalau inda. tpaksa ku antar surat cinta arh durang ne (inda mau mau)

Bila rasaku ini rasamu.

i should be on hiatus. nadaba. banarnya kan aku kan post lagu ani kemarin bah. Tapi since ada kawan ku alum mendangar kan... yatah ne ku post.




Aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu
Dan tak pernah ku sesali itu
Seluruh jiwa rela ku serahkan
Mengenang janji setiaku

Kumohon jangan jadikan semua ini
Alasan kau menyakitiku
Meskipun cintamu tak hanya untukku
Tapi cobalah sejenak mengerti

Reff:
Bila rasaku ini rasamu
Sanggupkah engkau menahan sakitnya
Terkhianati cinta yang kau jaga

Coba bayangkan kembali
Betapa hancurnya hati ini kasih
Semua telah terjadi

Back to Reff:

Aku memang terlanjur mencintaimu


As promise: announcement ku utk sahabat tersayang.

Haha aku and si B banarnya ada 'sesuatu' wa utk kamu. Yatah sepanjang perjalanan kami atu saja difikiran ba hehehe. Sekali sambil berbincang2 ada tia salah satu dari 'sesuatu' kami atu sama.... =p yatahh untuk kali ini sahaja ya, untuk kamu ne saja... aku bersedia... nyanyi utk kamu...and vid. (practice plang dulu tu...) SEKALI ANI JA. and aku inda pandai nyanyi kann bukan cam s9i bazilah, si kerol and si billah yatah need practice =p SEKALI ANI JA.

masalahnya..yang kami fikirkan... lagu apa? payah g mencari karaoke ane. haizz =p. Lagu apa bisai aa?? mun nada lagu NDA TA JADI TU ku nyanyi tuk kamu kali.. outie. kan sambung buat trial 'project' ku kemarin. haha menguji kehalusan seni tangan ku banar 'project' ku ani. haha (alum plang halus usulnya hahahaha)just wait and see siapa ampit.

For just a little more.

ehh!! adaka patut. Las min kena gto aku ikut blayar ke KL lusa ahh capi jua nee. begagas jua ne....ubd inda g batah start aduii.











hiatus tah ku ne









NADA BA. =p eksen ku. hahahahahaha. inda aku ne kan gto aku kan hiatus... okay lets not call it hiatus la...i'm just simply gonna blog less because of project ku. sapa tau tu diam ja aa. I'm doing a little something especially for some of my buddies who are leaving soon. Mudahan ja ciap la before kamu pegi. semoga mata sitiqah tarang utk menyiapkan. Okeeh. Mun na ciap plan B tah ne. I've been interested in it since a long time ago.. so i figured why not make one for others.

Bah... status: away. this also means i might be onlining less so kalau ada apa2... msg. mlm slm.







Just a little more... perhaps when the time comes.. it'll all fade away. cage it for just a little more. This game belongs to someone else. but.. where do i belong?

We'll just have to wait and see on what i'll bring you for a ride

Korean feast this afternoon was great. Nanti tah g bila ada rezeki okay. sama dolsot nyaman. and and sik hae ku.

Anyways..just now, while going around with the mum looking for materials, she suddenly said, "inda tah mama balikan ika cincin ne kali ani ah." Inda ku faham apa maksudnya wa mula mula. tapinya kan if kamu notice di tangan ku andang slalu ada cincin kan. Its actually like a tradition. I got my first ring when i was 10 after pce. Then i got my second ring, three years after that, after getting my pmb. See... you can actually see the trend. The current ring i'm wearing is the one after Olevels. Its actually rare to see me without it. I bring it to shower (its on my right finger btw!), to sleep and to almost everything. And she always gave me the ring on my birthday. I know this kinda sound not like it at all but except for a ring once in every 3 years.. i didn't exactly recieve gifts from her since a long time ago except dinner. Its only now that we started to slowly practice the habit of giving gifts. On our birthdays, mum would bring us for a family dinner or lunch but i kind of like it though because you can feel the togetherness when you have dinner or lunch together with the people you care about.

Going around without my ring ..feels empty. i know this sounds funny but eversince mum got me a ring after every achievements, i felt that its a symbol for her best hopes for me in my future. back to my story...she continued her line "sebab kali ani kerita ja.. "

HAHAHAHA. macam.. mama ani... buleeh. I'll make do with a car. I'm okayy. ahhaha. its surprising sometimes to know what is in our parents mind especially when we are about to start university life. Not to mention my aunt who is actually the most excited one here. Smpai kan she kinda gave me a lil something something. haha. They kinda just show you that they'll always be there supporting unlike someone...betanya pun nada. SAMA... inda ya mau gto aku bila ya bali! or what car she will get...ya kan surprise usulnya. hahahah i gave her a list of 'jangan' which includes kerita avanza, vios =p (inda!!), sirion, kijang, honda city (sebab macam beidung ba) ada g lah. sekali nya... "ehh ada tah tu.". mamaku ne dpt dibaca bah kadangnya, dri aritu dh ku tau ya kan bali without aku tu. Out of many many cars which aren't in my jangan -list, there is 2 she possible would buy. And i know she really wanted that white suzuki.

Then again... there are times.. she could be unpredictable. So we'll just have to wait and see on what i'll bring you for a ride (kalau kamu sempat jua ) =p

Andai saja aku masih punya...kesempatan kedua.

Yesterday. and he night before. This song has officially replaced Ku cinta kau apa adanya -Once from my replay list. This is the ost of Lost in Love, an indonesian film which i have not watch and now i want to because of the song... haha.

(OST Lost In Love)

Kini ku sesali
Nyata cintamu kasih
Tak sempat terbaca hatiku
Malah terabai olehku

Lelah ku sembunyi
Tutupi maksud hati
Yang justru hidup karenamu
Dan bisa mati tanpamu

Reff:
Andai saja aku masih punya
Kesempatan kedua
Pasti akan ku hapuskan lukamu
Menjagamu, memberimu segenap cinta

Ku sadari tak selayaknya
Selalu penuh kecewa
Kau lebih pantas bahagia
Bahagia karena cintaku

Which reminds me...i need to look for ost Sepi (cerita yang aku mau liat tapi alum liat!!) oct Cinta sayu membari kan menangis kan manatau ost Sepi lagi sayu. cari sendir.. Yuni Shara- Sepi. i know ceritanya lawa. malaysian bloggers ada bagi rating nya 9/10. YATAH. aku mau liat. bekutak kutak tisu pebaik ..mau jua ku liat. (and ofcourse my batman yang ku minati sangat2 haha) out. pagi slm.

My Roots.

Sayu ku membaca blog ani.

i saw this particular blog under family section in simpur blogging nation. No bukan arab family atu Ada lagi satu. awu.. i am a descendant of the Bungsu Lakim family. A grandchild of Hj Yahya Bungsu. This side... i am not close with. In the blog there was these pictures and pictures or the descendants of Bungsu Lakim. Youtube videos of family meetings. and etc



No. I'm not sad coz i felt left out. or that i didn't expect my extended family would be this big. I knew. Just like someone, I chose to stay at a distance from that side for a reason my mother and my grandmother and the dad's siblings would understand. lagipun aunts and uncles ku and dad tinggal di belait hahah. and i know i most probably does not exist to the extended version of the bungsu lakim family because i was invisible eversince i stayed with the mum. sayu ja sebab.. when i read eveything.. it just feels like my late grandfather is still there. its okay if i just stay here where i am. Just so long as i know i love my grandparents and i know they loved me too. And i know i am still apart of that family. because blood ties.. you cannot cut. and could never cut away from. So whereever i go, i will always remember my roots.


sekali kan there's this profile section of the bungsu lakim children. And my late grandfather's picture..... Click here. Number 6 atu.. Hj Yahya atu. yatah mulah niniku tu. hansem kan. hehe. yatah dengan kecantikkan niniku bini yang cam cina tu (apakan)...jadilah waris yang bisai bisai ala ala pelakun jepun =p=p=p (hahahahahh sekali sekala perasan. aku tau ada org sasak kalau aku prasan)


And its not like me. to post the link to the blog of the extended family of that side. Its not because i wish to be under the family member's link. (no i didn't say anything to the admin) but in memory of my late grandfather... here is the link.

(click on the logo to enter the blogsite)

Anyways. regardless of anything. or where i am. i still love my grandfather- the late Hj Yahya Bin Bungsu. Alfatihah.

bah out. esok pagi saya ke Miri. Astro ku padam yatah ne kan nyuruh org ofis astro sana membuka balik astro. almaklum...adiku esp yg bungsu ne macam aku inda dapat idup tanpa tv. salam.

No more waking up to misscalls or 11 am alarms.

Now a proper post.. it might be late for me to say this but

Congratulations.
To everyone who were able to further their studies.
To those who can't.. don't give up. Never giver up. Your time will come.God must have something else in store for you.

Hmm. I know you'd find it funny or weird for not posting any congratulatory posts before or brag especially about my besties. Honestly 'Congratulations' is really a difficult word. I know... kalau ku cakap ada tu yang kesayuan. So i'd rather not post anything or upload any pictures or newspaper articles. They know better than anyone else of how i feel for them and how proud i am so that is more than enough.

And as for me... lets just say i am most probably staying here. And i am quite happy to stay. Because when the people i will miss so much are in UK, China, NZ and Aussie...i want to be here at the centre. Besides... i've planned a long list of things-to-do while studying at UBD already. And alhamdulilah. I got the course i want.

If you're wondering, of course i am jealous that they get to study abroad. and how cool their career would turn out to be. i am only human. full of envy. It keeps on playing in my mind. kesana kemari dh ku membawa rasa. kena bwa g kepantai apa. haha merapu saja ne mulutku the whole week. kalau inda merapu..berdiam. but then ntah sekusut mana pikiran sitiqah.. all i could think of is to be is close to everybody so...

BAH in conclusion. Si tiqah sayang kamu. and proud of everyone. hehe. Yes. blajar! No more waking up to misscalls or 11 am alarms.

Paramore and Bullet for my Valentine

I downloaded some songs from Ungu yesterday. And it was gone. Haha mean i have no idea which folder i saved it in until i found one folder under my music folder which turns out to be my lil brother's.heh i'm not exactly sure what s his taste in music (or if he listens to any because all he does is play that stupid online game...sasak ku wa payah ku kan makai PC) Long story cut short... he listens to some pretty awesome music. Here are two songs i found and loved (and i am gona steal it from him later. hehehehehh now i know where to steal songs. Let him do the downloading ehehehe)

Paramore- Pressure. here is the wiki on them






Bullet for my valentine- no easy way out. here is the wiki on them.







bah. out. IE ku bitching. restart tebalik2.btw ya ada 'my heart will go on-celine dion' ost titanic ku yg ku minati sangat ah in the folder.heheh adiku tah banar.

hahahahahahh MIHIR.

Jgn di liat mun inda sanggup.

Taken from Popseoul.com. The picture shows Uhm jung hwa and her back up dancers. The post started with "We see half-naked women performing on stage all the time. So why not men? " HAHAHA i know org kenal sitiqah as the person yang slalu mliat lelaki hot muscular apa. TAPI ANI TAU JUA KU MIHIR KALI AH. i'd stick with skinny women dancing like a ho on stage than men in errr spendet dancing. Gila ketat g spendet nya atu. HAHAHAHAHA. MIHIR EHHH. ASTAGAPIR. hahahaha mun kamu wa tenari kamu in spendet ketat miatu tu??


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHH berigali eh. bah tutup tia mata kamu bebalik mun kamu sedang meliat. TUTUP. inda kuasa. JGN DI RENUNG BEB. =p

Tak bisa di ungkap.

like i said.lately i find myself so cold to the world.Inda ku tau g apa kan dicakapkan.Nada g yang ku terdaya cakapkan.

you might never know.

so i'm trying to run from reality.




But can i?

because it keeps coming back.





I am afraid. of all my tommorows.
the ones without your voice in it.
and the songs willl never be complete.


i will miss everything.

or maybe its just me. bah nites. will post proper blog when i found my grounds. (this post is a test for my readers =p) hehehehehehh.

because i am biased.

fak fak fak fak.


And suddenly i find myself so cold to the world. don't know why. perhaps, i am not ready to stand in real world.


Until then.. here's a vid from FT island. I know Amal introduced a song to me last year from ft island. I forgot the name of the song but here's one from them. youtube. Well honestly i'm in the mood for rock like miyavi. But i kinda like ft islands vocals. lagu durang ne mcm utk cerita drama2 atu.




Some people who loved ft island hates dbsk/toho. They say ft island's better than tohoshinki. Hmm i'm gonna be a bit biased. So i'm posting this here.. tohoshinki's acappella selalu mencairkan. hahaha. LIAT. forever love acapella from album T.



Lawa kan?

hate staying at home.

Cikgu Shun

Shun bebeh ani ah...slalu inda betantu rambut nya....still saya suka. ahaahhaah This is from his latest CF...ya jadi kindergarten teacher.



Hot eh. Suara nya g mcm mencair kan,. =p

anggap aku tak ada.

Before resuming to my current state of pretences and silence....

On the contrary...

Your eyes may tell something
but its your heart that i cannot read.

Besides.We are only human. And human makes mistakes. You may slipped the truth a second when i could catch it. and i might misread.

So don't worry. You are still hiding.
sorry.Just don't mind me. I'm a pain in the ass. I know.

now no more.i'm tired too. the stage awaits.theatrics must go on you know.

AMAL.

This comment of hers made my day.

"amal Said:
on July 12, 2008 at 10:28 am

"hahahaha… dah I recieved your gifts dah
Tiqs, aku tau presentmu yang mana satu… hahahaha only you who can give me a gift like that :-p …. "


HAHAHAAHHH. Actually. I forgot to tell her which gift is from me. But heck...she knows which one. babu kami tah banar. But i guess T is a transparent person hehehehh and sbb T ani pandai bah milih gifts kan kan (inda ja =p) Thanks for knowing which one is from me =p Really made my day.

MAL SEXY KAN JUBUR OREN AH!

DON'T FORGET TO WIPE IT =p hahahahaha.

Mencuba bertahan sekuat hati.

Even the loudest music can't help what i feel now. I tried not to cry but i don't know how much i have to suck my stomach just so these tears won't fall. I am not confident in myself anymore. I don't know if i can do it...suck my stomach, stop the tears and smile. I'm sad. Why? I'll just tell you one. And the rest... i won't say.

Because saying this to them is impossible now... this is for the people who are very very close to me.you know who you are.

Do you know how sad it makes me when one of you is sad. Or how worried i will be when one of you is worried. It just breaks my heart. I know that this is most probably why you won't say anything to me but then when i ask you what is going on.. or when i say "tell me that story you have not told"...you say there is none when there is clearly something- that saddens me even more.

You all cannot hide from me you know that.

You think you can but this is T you're talking about. I can't say i know everything. Because i cannot read your heart. Hati manusia siapa yang tahu. But your actions...you yourself... you can't hide from me. Then again my instincts might have even hit the bulls eye on what is battling within your little minds and hearts. When one of you say 'orang lain pun ada jua problems' i know that.

Faham ku kalau reason kamu buat cematu spaya org inda susah hati. That won't work for me! sebab aku kenal siapa kamu. Aku tau cemana senyuman kamu kalau kamu paksakan. Aku tau cemana senyuman kamu kalau kamu sedih. Ulah kamu kalau kamu susah ati. and how sincere you're laughs would be when you're truly happy. I kenal sapa kamu. So saying that nothing is wrong or trying to hide anything from me is useless.

I want to lessen your burdens. i want comfort you when you're down. But i can't do that when you don't share. I can only do it my own way.... i have tried to do my own way..i just don't know if you noticed. And soon..... things will change. A few of these people i know...might be leaving.. but that's another story for another time. I just want these people to know... i came to knew you over the days we spent together...

I'm always here if you need me.

can you all see me?.

Even when you're far.... i'll still be here.




Always will be here. I will never go away.



Now will you tell me the story you have not told?

Meet Aimi Kobayashi. She owns the stage and the crowd. And the piano.

Warning: this video may make you feel so stupid in music.I don't really care if you're ignoring this vid like all the others...you're the one to lose)

I know you're sick of more youtube...(and i did say i'll take a break. okay maybe what i meant was taking a break from posting crap thoughts and dailies and all sorts.) THIS IS DAMN INSANE! Born in 1995, meet Aimi Kobayashi (click here to go to her wikipedia. She even has her own wikipedia!)the pianist who has already a very astonishing career at young age. From winning the the 5th International Chopin Piano Competition in ASIA to performing at Moscow international house of music- this little girl you must watch.

I feel so stupid. Not that i never realise i am a dimwit in music (soo jgn d peduli tu V4T v4t drg a)...i only listen to the ones with beautiful tunes but i never really remembered the titles and etc. kalah ku ehh. This video was taken when she was 3 or 4 years old.




This one was when she performs Chopin Impromptu In A Flat, Op. 29 with Vladimir Spivakov in Moscow at the age of 10.




Owh and if you like this... google Emily Bear (this pianist prodigy even composed her own piece at 6 or 7) and Karin Zhou. . And when i said i'm drowning my self in the best distraction... i really do mean it. Out (for real! not blogging. hiatus. hahah yea right. i need to take a break from Youtube.)

Yoo Ye Eun- 5/6 year old genius blind pianist ft Connie Talbot.

I know i said i'd take a break from blogging but this video made me feel so sentimental that i just had to blog about it. This 5 year old adopted child is blinded from birth and she plays the piano beautifully (forget the wrong notes she hit...i can't even recognise notes at 18). And get this...she only needs to listen to it once. She even sings...at arond 5.00 min she'll sing a song ..something like "you were born to be loved" seriously...beautiful.




After a year from the above vid. Feauturing Brits got talent the very young Connie Talbot. The vids got me crying. Listen to the lyrics. ='(

Drowning in the best distraction: lets have some Miyavi.//eddited

Feeling really off balance. I just realise i have that bad habit of binging on chillis and sour plums while watching to lots of videos when my sky gets a little cloudy.

Lets talk music. because music makes the best distraction when everything else fails.

Presenting : Miyavi -japanese rock star. He (or she or what ever this person gender preferences is) is, i admit, hot. yea i've gone crazy. Lots of stuffs make one crazy. I'm kidding. I really do find him hot. I am not sure if its the music he plays, or the rocker charisma he exudes... i don't judge a person by his looks. He plays good stuff dude.(and i mean hot as in hot for a rockerceleb. =p not for a man i want to date hahaha)


雅-miyavi- - 素晴らしきかな、この世界 -WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD




The current obsession. Entah napa. I have never been a fan of such genre but this song just sticks to my mind. Or i have gone insane. Either way.. real nice song.

Miyavi- freedom fighter




Miyavi- Selfish love.




The video starts with some superb instrumentals but after a minute or so you'd hear vocals too so dengar.


bah...i might be away from the blogging world probably for a day or two or a week or whatever. not feeling that well so i'm just gonna rest and drown myself in music. because i miss that world without pretences.

Cinta ini membunuh ku.

Thursday night is almost never boring. Despite having a crazy lifestyle,the student almost always introduces some great songs. Along with a list of Dygta, tangga, Meet uncle hussein and vagetos...here is one song my student introduced:





kau membuat ku berantakan
kau membuat ku tak karuan

What's playing.

its time for a proper music. (not that 'tell me' isn;t proper =p)Played and replayed several times for the past few days.

Ku cinta mu apa adanya- Once





Sampai kapan- Ari lasso.




all hail youtube for superb song search. *addicted* Ahaha both songs... are just catchy to my ears.

If so.... Nin can you stay for a while?

uits si Nina. jgn check blog time kerja bebeh =p sorry i disturbed you while you have a lot to do kemarin. hehehh

I know what you think i'm trying to do is a silly thing. esp when it won't do good for me. (hehe you did that 'ko cuba utk....?' with a hint of surprise there. jgn ko mcm2 =p) but ntah.. i guess i have changed a lot didn't i since the last time we spent our days together a lot? for better. because i want the people around me to be happy. That made me reckless. it has made us reckless. i know you know what i mean.

If everything else leaves... u stay for a while okay. Carry me through everything just like you always do.

And it has to be you...coz.. only you...i can't hide from. because you... will always tell.

T to Nina.

Teman tersayang.

Tuesday 8th July. Went to belait berlima. Heheh. Thanks to the rest yang mendangani- Buzz, Dibah and K, the real man-my night vision. HAHAH. Went to visit Zir at her apartment in Seria. The trip was quite okay inda jua mbari ngantuk la since the three of them begila d blakang while lina and i were at the front. It was quite stressing looking for directions especially when Zir gave me 3 roads namely jalan dapan, jalan tengah and jalan pantai. kan mental ku mikirkan luan bnyk jalan di baginya ku direction aa sampai menipun auntie ku wa. Auntie ku ne g....suruhnya ke KB utk msuk k jalan pantai. We stopped at OGDC for food because Dibs can't live without eating every one hour =p Guess what! tau tau apartment nya ne tu sebarang OGDC ah. capi. seriously... if i didn't ask buzz to be at front, i wouldn't have seen the sign. tau lah si tiqah and direction ne inda serasi bah.

Raided si Zir's room. I was tired actually and with the body aches i feel like sleeping so i kinda spent a while in her room with her pillow =p NYAMAAN. hhahahaha. pastu kami besayang =p...ceta2 ckit. and etc. catching up la. Oh yes i drove all the way. hehhe T is getting better at this. How long has it been? errr 2 months since being legal. =p *kambang


pokoknya. I missed Zir brabis lah. Coz u'r the only one who knows things even without telling. And and driving along the road to kb was pretty nostalgic. despite everything.... i kinda miss that road. and the people. =/ manatah saja.

Tell me. Tell me...TTTTTTTell me.

I'll post about yesterday later. (aku malas blogging bah ne bnr nya) hahaha anyhoos....TERIMA KASIH TEMAN TEMAN and the real man ;p heh. kerana mendangani aku kemarin though my mood was a wee bit off due to damn aching body and psl suma org suka duduk blakang. And sayang si Nina. Kraja jgn kan cek blog org time kraja. =p nnti g jumpa ko Bah aku ne kan sharing video yg buat aku ketawa berabis ba ne.




yang ani. esp towards the end CALI hahahahahhh kiut plang big bang nari ah.



ANI HAHAHAHH LIAT SENDIRI LAH. if you're turned on inda ku tau ahh. hahahaha HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHHAHAHAHAHA.




This is seriously the cutest thing ever in the entire TELL ME phenomena.



no offense... mcm pimp usulnya si JYP nari tell me ah HAHAH.


bah outie. krg tah ku blog g ah. dh ku rajin.

Shun bebeh.

I have to admit...my Shun Oguri bebeh is kind of skinny in Gokusen. And yes he kind of suits it. This post is just to show a certain someone that although shun is thin...he has the dada and has a very tough bod =p Nah liatlah betapa sexynya berchest ani instead of being skinny.

This pic goes first because i love this look much much.

Masa ya muda. Kurus bida.

Ani, i think, was the look he sported in Gokusen 1.

Kurus kan.

Ahahaha he really suits the role Shinichi Kudou in Detective conan. Saya cair.

I found this picture by ACCIDENT. lucky eh. =p Inda ku tau bila badannya jadi miani tapi apparently he does look skinny in binbou Danshi which is one of his latest series....never knew this is how he looks like under the clothings. okayyy lah =p HAHAHA.

THIS, ladies and gents...esp YOU si..... (aah well u know who u are), is the latest picture of him during a press of some sony erricson CF. Note the shoulder. The dada. The arms. =p Kindaaa reminds me of someone if he transform to this.=p=p

Seee....semakin sexy kannn! Semakin saya suka kan si shun bebeh ku ani.

Haizz. i wonder how he did that. Well, i do have imaging evidence of a certain someone transforming from kurus karing to..............okaylah hehehehehehe. jangan bimbang =p=p akan ku simpan neee hehehehhh. manatau nnti 5 taun akan datang tani wonder bebalik 'eh cana ya betukar jadi berchest ani ah =p' But see.. inda jua bida ne mun mcm oguri kan. Okay kan. yatah aku akan tetap memberi sokongan padu.

And i did not mention any names here except for si Shun bebeh. =p so tiada ku bersalah.

last but not least. Lub Oguri ku. Btw watch Binbou Danshi. LAWA banar. very cali and ada meaning behind it. =) Aku ada plang ne heheh *hint*

Growing up: this is for my ladies.

Note: nostalgic. I just had one of the best chats since a very long time with them. It started with a message that started like this: hi ladies..... it occured to me.. since when have we grown from just mere girls to ladies? Dr A's right. Men may come and go. Friends may come and go. But sahabat stays forever. I am not exactly sure how to explain but it sounds cool doesnt it?

2004


I met the three of them (including mizah not lina). We got together often. Zirah was still unattached .=p So was ridha. hahaha. And ofcourse the very single T. Chosen for explomaths along with Zir, A and FN. Zir, met her him and got attached. The girls get to know each other more and more. Bonds grew and we instantly became bestfriends. Lin and i took geography. Zir took economics and Ridha was the only one in class taking computer. That was the only class period we got seperated. Mizah remembered the first sentence i said to her when we first met- hi aku tiqah aku ne pendiam ne. And she said that while i was talking non stop. =p hahaha


2005


We were still lab partners in bio and physics lab (just like the year before) where Zir and i would chat, lina writing her stories and Ridha pretending to concentrate at Mr leong. We would rush to the canteen and buy our favourite, the soto. Ate in class while laughing crazily over silly matters while everyone else thought we were a very quiet (tkarang) group. Ridha is still in love with computer. Zir 'loves' Mrs Rani. and i 'love' my ninth subject- accounting. Went for tuition (or rather chatting session) at Zir's uncle. Berhari raya with auntie nya apa. And zir was afraid of cats. Ridha and i bitch about sexy Spaniards and italians and even share Spanish language books. Si mizah eksen pendiam tapi gila bnrnya. Almost two years has passed and i have no idea when we all became sisters.

2006


Ridh and Zir decided to go to Maktab Duli instead of PTEB because Zir prefer to go there and ridha wanted to take computer and only MD offers computer as a form 6 subject. Mizah had to go to MD. And ofcourse Lin and i went to PTEB. It was actually hard at first. The friends you see everyday, pull you out of the canteen crowd, sit with you in the lab...they were not there anymore. And you make new friends.



2007


We hardly see each other. Only through the net sometimes we update uorselves. And oh...Zir loves cats. And Ridha is still with her hehehh pemain bula =p And T is still very much single.



Now

Zir- currently doing her attachments with BSP, doing the petroleum technologist work thingy. I have no idea what it is but its about monitoring oil wells etc. She'll be studying for a year in UBD before going to Sydney, i hope. Ridha- MOE scholar who will be doing Software Engineering in UK. She really loves IT stuffs. Lina- doing foundations in Perth. And philosophy and ethics. wuhuu. Kan gila yo that subject. Mizah will be doing her Beng civil engineering in ITB. and me.... the one who will be doing biological science.



The 5 of us- will be farther away from each other when this long holiday ends. We will be scattered all over. And the chat with sayangku Zir, Ridha and Lina was the best ever we had in a very very long time.


Funnily, i am not sad. Because, we still laugh like we used to even when we don't see each other that often. We still serve cookies of fast food when we visit each other. We still buy each other gifts. So i guess, i am assured...no matter where we are, we still have each other. 5 years later i am sure we are going to sit chat just like today or the days before. We'll sit in one table..no matter who you'll be.. petroleum engineer ka, civil engineer ka, software engineer ka, or phsycologist...we still will be the same. That is why. AKU SAYANG KAMU.


ps- gila. ramai jua kamu ne ambil engineering. aku gnya ambil biology kah??? sayang bnr kamu kan mr leong atu. =p Zir.... saya tahu u rindu kan ku =p jgn temimpi2 aku ah d sana KB. mimpi zaim mu ja. krg inda ko tertidur. kiss kiss. (mihir hahahaha =p) Ridh...msg ja ah di mana.

Aku hanya insan biasa...yang tak kenal nota. Siapalah akuu??

Sebab kan mun ku taruh semua ani arh orang atu tagboard, panuh bah ne. That's why this post is a respond to that post. Seriously kamu....as i've said in my previous post kan...drg punya 'promo' ani kan mikin menjadi jadi. Recently, TEAM cuculnya started screaming the 'trademark' di mall. cecapi bnr ya ni a. Pikir tah tido dh. udah ku bek hati atu kan arh nya.. inda ku mau berabis g mempromo ya (since ya bnyk vid ku yatah aku mesti maniss arh nya). Pastu time ku kan curi gambar si Dibah emosi mencari lagu atu...ada tia post attu. CECAPI BANAR EH SI________ANI. padan aher aher atu...'tido lena ahh' . padan taah. grr. malas ku ingau gto kamu link nya.

Kepada rakyat brunei yang di cintai. Drg ani kan membuli aku bah....ckp si tiqah ikut p2f apa. manada si tiqah ikut p2f kamu. banar. jgn kamu salah faham. Drg ne balas dendam kan tapi berabisan bah. Inda jua adil neee. ani naah 5 lawan 1.

Sama aku inda tau mana drg dpt idea aku pandai nyanyi jazz ah. Banarnya nyanyi jazz dpn durang pun jarang...duii once in a pink moon. Macam sekali dua kali (kali). Apa suara jazz. Suara ku inda se sedap drg bah. Apa jua...siapalah aku kan. hahaha jgntah kamu pecaya tu drg aaa. Jgn tah di sokong promosi drg ah.

inda lena tidur ku.

Hancock and introducing....DIBAH ronggeng.

Kepada si KEROL yang selalunya karit btakang.... ya sangat baik pada hari itu sooo TERIMA KASIH bebeh. hahahaha. Watched Hancock. It was, in its own way, damn funny. It was sad towards the end though..bek jua inda tenangis. haha. And and Charlize lawa. I love her. Plus, burgers and coke are an awesome combination. Way better than popcorns //kirai. Kids do not follow this. The story is better than I Am Legend. bnr plang katanya siuk g wanted.

What made the day more fun was the fact that 11 of us conquered row G. Mostly the BHA gang but not everyone from BHA. If everyone went, it'd be more fun. (cubatah kmu dtg ah. jarang ne Si K lanja ne) Bca si Dibah and Si Billah and Si kerol punya blog la utk mengetahui dengan lebih lanjut. (cari sendiri blog drg arh links ku)

AND.

DIBAH KAMBANG!!!!!!!!!! DIBAH AND BILLAH AND SI KEROL CAPII (kmu dua termasuk sbb kamu ikut mem'promo' masa di escalator ah) CAYA KAMU. Aku tau ne ani si Dibah punya idea ne. Drg teriak teriak 'vote for tiqah' di mall ah. Pastu inda puas ati.....ckp basar2 g tu 'ni sitiqah masuk P2F ah' MANADA KU MASUK P2F kamu. Drg ani. they're 'promoting' me for nothing. Smpai org fikir aku ikut P2F. banar nada ku ikut. Audition pun inda. astaaa. Mikin menjadi drg buli /'promote' aku. Si dibah tu eksen tia pdahal ahh cuba liat neee

Ya bah yg iski nakan nakan lagu.. Penuh dengan konsentrasi lagi. Waduhh 'aku inda pandai nyanyi konon' Eksen bnr dibah anii. And kamu mau tau bonus nya ya ne...Si Dibah ne macam si Kerol kan- pandai menari. Mun ada body jam apa atu bah yatah mua nya ani ada neee kami bawa. Inda sah mun takde dibah. Macam menari tanpa dibah ani bagai minum sup tanpa sira. hahaha.

Yatah since aku PAHAM dibah malu malu ucing *ppttuiii* menyanyi, i didn't include her in the list last time. Lagipun ya ne rocker chick bah. Anu segala amuk, Search etc apa tu yatah ksian jua ku mun ya ku pajal msuk p2f =p That's why i've been saving another competition for her bah so that she can shake that booty. I think she is more suited for this:

Because Dib's so spectacular.

bah babes.... gelek aja deh. I know you wannnaa. her special moves kamu :Ronggeng. Wuhuuu. Dun u wanna see Dibah ronggeng??? And awu Dibah aku sayang kmu juga.=p

あ め

='(

Ame desu.

it just won't stop.

Nandesuka kono kimochi?

I still don't know. Still mixed. I can't sort out what from what.

Sedih ku ja.


Thanks for calling babe. Coz really... i was off my balance. You know how off i was since the past few days. Luvs u. Dun ever change sis.

Feeling romantic- speeding your way to my mind.

Been listening to this song- 24 hours by Hans Anuar and Putri Norizah. And this is dedicated to one who has been in my mind almost all the time now. I never saw you the way i see you now. How long has it been since i longed for you.... ermm 1 week? And when i'm just about to settle for less.. there you are..speeding your way to my mind once again. You are driving me crazy.

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wake up to the morning light

I see your face in my mind.

Its driving me crazy,oh so crazy.

I look up to the morning sky

I see your smile in my mind

Am I crazy, oh so crazy

Cos it’s like 24 hours only you in my mind

And it’s like 24 hours only you in my heart

And it is 24 hours.Tell me what is happening to me

Called you name in the middle of the night

I can’t sleep just thinkin’ about you

Now is that crazy, oh so crazy

I turn on my PC (yeah)There again your face I see

Now this is crazy, oh so crazy

Maybe I’m in love with you

I don’t know

Cos all I think is you

But one thing that’s for sure

All I know you’re in my mind24 hours….24,24 hours..

Tell me what is happening to me.

You are driving me crazy (literally =p) Sob. Hondaaaaa. Mama.. honda ah. Honda ah. Dimana2 bah ma. Argrghhh. I need to work harder and put 'honda' into her mind. =p HAHAHA. Sasak ku eeeh. Look at this middle finger honda owners *jeles*

Honda tersayang.... *obsess*

HAHAHAHA for a second there. what do you think it'd be?? =p

Kami bahan 'IMPORT'

HAHAHAHAHA!! macam kenal je org buat post ne kat brudirect.

read: Bukan Kana Reject TAPI kana IMPORT

hahahaha aku ada rasa ah aku tau sapa yg buat ne aahahahahaha. Sbb ya termasuk dlm golongan org benar2 mental hahaha.

I want to but i don't want to. I don't want to but i want to.

He told me its a waste not to give a try. She told me i have nothing to lose so why not push it a little further. I stayed until morning drafting the letter because i decide to give it till the end.

And yet i spent the day lying down in bed. Bathed at around 5pm. Stayed for an hour or so under the shower. Thinking what i really want to do. My feelings are mixed. Well mixed and battered like flour and eggs. Its a battle within a battle within another battle. Its like standing in the middle of a balance. It equal. Which ever side i walk to, some things would be at advantage and some would be at a disadvantage. Some things.... i will probably lose, either side- just like falling while being in the middle of the balance.

I can't even listen to my own heart. Beats by beats i get lost in it. Every waking moment i think- am i ready to enter a new phase? Close my eyes, i am ready to start. Close my mouth, i am not ready to walk through the door. What do i want really? Maybe i'm just afraid of new stuffs. Things will happen. Our life isn't an act where we can rewrite the script. I am just afraid.

Entah ah. I just feel that... either side of the balance...it seems that i'll gain something but something will be lost.

What is this feeling- i don't even know. Its alot of things mixed in a bowl. Is it an instinct? I don't even know. I would like to know. But it scares me to know. I just hope... whichever path i will go, its the best for me. A paths towards better life. God knows better. Amin.

I don't even know what they are anymore...

I am trying so hard not to be sensitive. Until i met three person in a room. Two trying their best to defend the system and yet through the speech i saw some flaws. One, being a relative of my dad, trying so hard to convince me to love more.

and i'm very upset about some stuffs right now and one might include you. Trying so hard to ignore somethings but it hurts more when you say to yourself that its okay...when you know that's a lie. It seems i'm the only transparent one here...when everyone is hiding something to themselves. I am so transparent that you can read me and yet never realise that i've always been there.

It just hurts so much when people make assumptions but they don't even know the truth.



Anyone of you who has a honda civic- look at this little middle finger. Everyone who has audi...look at this double middle finger. Sigh. I need a scapegoat i can hit and run. Just upset about some things...that i don't even know what those things are.

What the fuck have you been doing lately?

Caya kamu.... i went back at around 7 pm plus yesterday. Rehat rehat sandar sandar. Tau tau...i woke up at 4 in the morning. Haha lalah js sudah tu. B, K and i watched the movie K and i have been wanting to watch. B..next time we watched your movie ah- kungfu panda. I've watched it but i don't mind watching again. We bought jolibee burgers and hid it in my bag. Naah bagus kan bag ku basar atu. Man the smell was all over the theatre but wth.

There was flipping cars. Bullets through heads. Knives. Hot Mc Avoy. Sexy angie (there i'm gonna say it).

IT WAS FAKIN-TASTIC. Seriously, we were going all oooohh aaah over the violent scenes but K was a different story- he went ooohh aahh over angie. I was trying to slide down everytime he does that ggggrrr-inda-ku-tahan-mliat-angie. And and everytime there was angie, kena sigung ku nyamu olehnya. And everytime K went ooh aah over angie, kena sigung ku lagi leh B sbb ya malu. hahaha you should watch WANTED with us.

SUKA KU BANAR! Cool wa kerita nya ah. Read here for K's craziness over angie. And here for B's ratings.

It was great from the start. And the ending was awesome. It ends with..."what the fuck have you been doing lately?" hahahahahaahhh

ps- gonna reply to all your tags later. Now gotta go to MOE. kan liat apa course ku kena bagi kat UBD.