Fly.

"In this time of fear, when prayer so often proves in vain.Hope seems like the summer birds, too swiftly flown away...." -when u believe

kamu...aku ada kawan wa. nama nya siti nur petat =p ya pandai cakap cina ne. tapi ya bukan org cina. ukan jua org pilipin. haha. TAT. napa org panggil kau dri petat to "tat..tat" bukan "pet.. pet" ? and si shaqqy a. capi.jadi tikar ia ku udah.


I fucked up things today. I'm pretty depressed with my tests, I feel like hijacking an airplane. Or french kiss a girl =p. (because jumping off a bridge is so common..boring) It made me think, wth have i been doing lately? What am i doing ici ? Je ne sais pas. Vraiment. Its as if all i've been doing lately is non. nein. nothing. nada. urgh. =(

still. terima kasih to those who made today a little less difficult. And to the three people who knew the topic of "blue" "blue oh blue.. you are fading to white... =p" si Byl, Dibs, Shake. and esp si shake who randomly did this while they were reading french: "mr gandin~*manja tone*...... mari. bole le. *french accent*" sambil main ngan rambut topi cina utk si amsyar ah. serious yaw. HE KNOWS HOW TO WORK IT (the chinese hat and the french tone i mean). you have to see or youself. It was hillarious. org kan kamih tekamih dh kali. Kami ne inda beranti wa ketawa ani wa. hahhahahaha. and it didn't stop until someone's open house tadi. He kept on saying random things today and that kinda made things a little less difficult. and now i know where nurul adibah's horny-ness comes from. and my bag kinda hit Dibah's hangtuah's _______ (hint: middle part of a male where they would usually feel pain if we kick them=p) and it was an accident. Cana jua. That place ah. sempit amat ba. aha.=pp


And while aku becerita siapa mr blue ane arh dibah, udah nya tausedikit disebur hint tu a..tau bnr ya ba mana satu. gatal bnr. ya ckp aritu kan.. kalau ada lelaki ya terpikat kan... mesti ada aku nya.. nada competition lain. Nah nah. sapa juaa. di sebut sedikit sapa si biru ani, tau tia udah. adang tah eh. jgn tah di kacau beboipren udah.... AWU that is not a typo. Ya beboypren dah ba lelaki a. haish. pasangan bahagia dh tu. why are we always involved in the same guy dibah?? mula2 si top kiut. =p si jang hyuk. Si KEY kunci hati ku. (nuna like..) Si Shia lebouf <3 Si taebin duda ku. Si hangtuah mata sekshy. (yg sama class ngan aku) ahaha. ko ne ah. ani si biru lagi =p haha. well. maybe not all guys la kali kan =p aha. LEOnardo dicaprio aku tu ah!!

Aku sayang kamu semua btw. =)


and the people who can read me in and out may know how i am right now and how my life is now... fucking things up. got my self an eye candy guy who turns out having a boyfriend.c yes a boyfriend (well we kinda suspected that earlier ahaha. hence he is more interested in billah in terms of gender than in me kan kan. that explains why byl got the 'kena tagur' experience. =p)njoying some laughs while i should be studying. Looking for things to eat when i should be researching for presentation materials. I don't want to be anaeroxic. 3 round g ku makan. I have been binging on food to get rid of these pressures. f(x)= food+ stress+ T. Lim of f(x)= DNE, i've even been wasting too much time i don't deserve to be where i am supposed to be.

And i'm kinda lost now. I've been fucking things up can i get up after this? what am i gonna do in the future. i mean i am not pretty enough to be a blonde, and yet i don't think i am extremely clever to excel either. I've been doing nothing. I am heading to no where. I really don't know.

I feel like i am trapped in a cage. stuck like your little parrot.


I want to fly and see things.

ps- for those who still don't know me, i am a fucking cyber emo. Get used to it. i've tried not to be but it comes naturally. and i hate trashing people. I don't want to become someone else's kata kata belakang' and aku menyindir ne. n i have something in mind coming up. hmm. bah salam, malam. kiss kiss.

what am i doing here?