SELAMAT ULTAH BILLY J.

To cowok yang ada di Bandung now: Selamat Ultah!




dear social one,

Nothing grows young.Everything grows old. That is why we need eurychoma longifolia (tongkat ali)! =p supaya yang kendur nanti jadi kencang. HAHAHAHA.But no matter how old you are, ur still my bestest bichi preng ever. And ur will always be birah. Long live.

Love,Yang terpinggi di pinggiran-

Siti antisosial.





Selamat ulangtahun sayang. HAHAHA hahahahahahahaha. The lyrics speaks though:

Yang tulus ikhlas
Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas
Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang slalu memberi (true true)
Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Prechorus:

Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta
Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Chorus

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang (terabang plang sudah =p)
Rentaslah langit cita cita mu
Harap nanti kita ‘kan bertemu

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang (=p)
Ku nanti penuh kerinduan (=ppp)
Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan

Aku hanya ingin kan engkau setia (setia kepada kami orang brunei yg inda seberapa =p)
Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu




But seriously, bon anniversaire. I wish u were here. No. i wish i was there =p hahahah LAPS BERABIS. u are my overdosage bichi the birah one GO BIRAH. (tho aku yg oba nowadays. me the antisosial one)

Hisashiburi desu ne.

Yesterday, in the car, i was just thinking of how i got used to sitting far away from people in some lecture classes, no one to accompany me to the ladies room, how i'd rather listen than talk and how quiet i've become. I was just thinking of how i've just gotten used to not going on msn anymore or read blogs because of some reasons. I am avoiding talking with the people i know and i intend to continue that way. For a very long time. I intend to stay quiet too because people won't know or understand what i feel anyway.

And then you came at a very unexpected time.

It was a sentimental thing for me. Some people won't understand what the tears are for.


welcome back. And sorry if some of the things and people you left...aren't here anymore. Like a little brother you used to know. And perhaps, some of the things in me you used to know too. But we still are the same. Laps.


ps- no BEN. Your actions didn't affect mine. Its just that....there are a few reasons why i should take french instead of geo. And a few reasons too why i should take geo instead of french. They balanced each other out. =/ so i am still thinking and wondering what will be the best for me.

Isolation.

I can't see your sadness.
And you won't understand mine.
I am selfish.
I can only see what i want to see,
So why bother.
This couch is so comfortable.
I want to stay a little bit more.



On another note, PS- thanks ridha!! haha italian? i need 'motivation' dicaprio is only half italian and doesn't speak italian at all =pp your exams coming soon kan sis? GOOD MARKS.good marks to zirah too ah. I haven't been logging in to the net much. Loves. Yeah do tell her. hehe.

Qam furen.

Walaupun suara ku yg serak2 inda kedengaran (awu... my temperature rising since yesterday. Hence suara oso makin seksi tpi org nda paham pikirnya aku nangis saja tplang. Damam ku bah eh), aku b skype dengan seseorang yang ku rindui tadi. Btw ada ku ckp aku demam kan. Yatah merah atu. cecapi. hehe.

qam furen. =p

Wo ai ni. Please stop bullying me. You are so meanie. I said i don't want to play no more game anymore lo. U dun believe me a. Wa lau eh. ahaahaha. (mandarin tia krg kuar dialect lain hahahah) Seriously sayangku, i will (try) not... because it doesn't seem to be a right thing to... You know me. Aha i cannot forgive myself if i did a selfish thing. So jgn lagi ada dong kata2 seperti itu.

Kan kan ko inda ajar aku sehari sepatah kata kuar dilect apa ka tu. Ajar ku yg relevant ba eh. RELEVANT. =p Besides...yg ko ajar aku a.. . tak der gune nyer pun. haha capi ko a. esuk ku bali microphone. sediakan segala perkataan yg relevant a.

sesungguhnya aku merindui mu lebih dri pada kau merindui ai ren mu a. hahahaha.

eh eh i learnt a new sentence just for you.... =p=p you le ai ren le ma ? hahahaha lurus kah inda tu. cuba ko ckp arh lelaki cute mu a. mcm gila.. erotic tu ah hahahaha.

ni e ma?



ahahahaaha. cakap tia pat si cute a. hahahahaha.

Ridha.

Early this year, lina left. The three of us were there to send her -Nina, Ridha and i.
Then, Nina left 11 sept, and the two of us were there to send her- Ridha and i.
Today.. Ridha left, and there i was to send her. And now.. no i will not cry.

Keep that green letter yea. I made it myself just for you. You're my sister, i know you're like me in many ways. I know... more than anyone.. that you'll be sad even if you said you're not. Take care when you're there. We will not be around each other anymore during your birthday which is a day before mine. I'll miss how we bump into each other masa bali our birthday gifts. I'm so sure you'll be a great software engineer. Loves you. Loves the both of you. Suruh Nina contact aku a. Mcm i haven't heard any news from her since she left for Notts last week. I hope you'll settle down soon.


Ridha wadiah. My sister and always will be.

Masih.

//if
I recieved a msg from a number yang ujung nya -136. tdi ptg. Banarnya i tot it was someone else msg panya.. well you know who. Awu pandai udah ya msg aku. bwwoh.
monday goes on like any other day. uni life sure is cruel isnt it. you have to go on even when there is a huge hole in your life. a few days ago i signed up for BNS and BioCop. and i changed my mind about something. I might be going on that rat trapping at gadong market activity. You know... biologist do crazy stuff. I think it'll be best to learn how to be mad from the seniors.

. btw really glad to know you're safe in uni already.

next best buddy.. esok. am i ready? No never am. never will be.

12mid night. aha. just like when i did that pink purple letter... i'm making another parting gift (which isn't the same but still all are meant for you all NOT to forget me) for another buddy. It makes me think. Maybe i should join that scrap book club. Not to forget si mul. Awu you get one too. hehe.

For the one who can see the invisible.

14/09/08

='(

Sorry aku inda tahan. Maybe i should tell you that

i didn't want to exercise during the last days in fz instead i 'counted till 40' because i knew.. i couldn't count anymore. Thank you for not telling me your departure date until so late.. because i will count days. I didn't want to appear online since i started ubd... because i don't want to spend so much time talking to you anymore.. I didn't want to sing last friday...because, you sing with me always. I want to be angry at you during the last days because... you're the only one wh0 can make me really mad.

And i thought all those will make it easier to see you off. But its not..you know better that its not. so sorry aku inda tahan. And kau capi. Ko yang nangis dulu a. cana jua ku inda nangis.

thank you for the gift. kambang. karang nangis saja ku di sana. Kurus ku nee!! sebab exercise sambil nangis everytime liat gift mu.


Sorry for my wrong doings especially sebab aku slalu marah and buat ko marah. Thank you for.. everything. And ko hati karas..inda sedih?? Bull shit Khairul Nuar firdaus. I can see you when you're sad. just like you were when this picture was taken. Luar senyum. dalam sapa tau =p 'aku-tau-kek-untuk-aku'konon. i can see the invisible kali a.

the rest is in that pink purple letter.

I will wait for my surprise.

My NINA.

11/9/08


The only one who can read my heart, my sastera and me, even when i never said anything, has left. So now. no one here will actually be able to read everything i keep inside. Now, who should i go to when i'm having a hard time? =(

Attended her function plus jemaah at her house. It was the night i'd never forget. It was our last night together..until next time that is. Plus, something (sad) happened that night. hmm. besides, i have not been around your family in ages. i am still worried. I hope everything will go fine.


Just so you know, you'll always be the darling out of my darlings, because... you know too much of me =p=p


Good luck. Rajin rajin belajar. Jangan kelaie saja dgn yang d Liverpool. jangan kan teingat kan kucing mu saja. Ingat kan si Tiqah saja ah. remember me always. And jangan lupa email aku slalu. Antar ku poskad eh =p btw thanks for the keychain. and and jangan pernah berubah. ;)

Sayang.

ps- BUAT BLOG EH. update kami baa dengan keadaan mu sana.

Blowing the candle.

10th May was Islam's 20th Birthday so today we planned a small surprise party for her.

It all started when Bz texted Islam to come over her house to revise something. And everything falls into place and our surprise was a success!

Mr K and i bought a cheese-cocktail cake at Makcik Bakeshop (with 5 cherries =p haha) and also drinks. Our journey took us here and there around the shops in gadong.

(left to right) Miss T- yang berhormat dayang perasa dan pembasuh pinggan, Bz- yang berhormat puan penasihat dapur, Mr B- yang berhormat awang pengupas bawang dan Mr K- Yang berhormat awang penggaul masakan dan pembasuh pinggan. HAHAHA. We went to Buz house 2 hours before Islam came. My car was parked at Buz's grandma's house to avoid suspicion and we helped in the kitchen. This is our kitchen team =p *kicks gordon ramsay's ass*

Simple food was prepared and Buzz went out to fetch Islam while the three of us wait with our cake. We were palpitating heavily-nervous-waiting for her =p HAHAH kami plang nervous.. And when islam came... BAAA! HEPI BDAY TO U! She was sooo surprised. yess.

Happy 20th Islam.

After that, we indulged. (i am so tired to upload all so u can just look at Mr K's blog for our pictures where we looked so high on cake)

Selepas itu kami memanyap makanan. Mereka bertiga menjadi tukang lap lap pinggan.

While saya membasuh lagi...almaklum.. YB dayang pembasuh pinggan kali ah. Sbnr nya Mr K, YB awang pembasuh pinggan pun ada bah tapi saya terluan sibuk kan mbasuh pinggan sehingga tidak terambil gambar nya.=p Banar2 ya menggasa pinggan jua kamu haha.

Us chilling before our usual session.

Which ofcourse was KARAOKE =D hehehe (and...i don't usually sit as ganas as that =p HAHAHAH) We bought new karaoke cds...fun babeh. Ofcourse we took video of the scene where we shocked islam but that will be posted later. And Amal... the video is especially for you. (wait till we figure out how to post it here.)

Until then. Nites. Salam. KAN TIDO KU BAHH.orang atu tido dah ah.

A bunch of cowards watching Congkak.

Sudah ku padahkan arah mu,

hari hari ku sibuk sekali,

nah pantun yang kau tunggu,

aku pun tedapat kali ah darah seni.

Its a rare thing to see Miss T watch a horror movie. The last one was jangan pandang belakang. Haha and we were a bunch of enthusiastic coward watching Congkak yesterday. Seriously, you would laugh looking at our behaviour. B bought the one you used to close your eyes when you sleep (i' don't know what its called). Bz used her long jubah to cover her eyes. Ly was shouting at every possible sound. K sama jua. BETUKUP banar muanya. And i, ofcourse, covered my head and ears. But but don't get me wrong i still saw what happened at every scene. Its just that my vision is narrowed =p and the sound did not affect my eardrums that much =p haha.

adang kau ngucap-ngucap aku,

kau ku liat betukup mua jua,

tapi rugi ko nda mliat billah nu,

betutup kepala macam eskimo saja.

Honestly, i wanted to watch orphanage last time but it always plays at midnight in the cinema. And i can't find the DVD or CD.

Yeps. K and i went kboxing before the movie. He was straining his voice so much i was afraid that his stiches would tear. Bida kali ah ada blood splatter arh kbox hahah. And we went kboxing with the rest after the movie. Seriously, if movie producers were to make a horror movie out of Karaoke-ing, batah nda menyanyi. Regarding to our boys vs girls competition i would say- antara kita tiada pemenang tiada pengalah bah eh. =p

still curious. He didn't continued his lines.