Are you one of the few who read my answers?

Had a chat with a malaysian who studies medicine in Jakarta. And he was wowed with my amazing ability to think about nonsense stuffs. I guess i might have bore him. We talked about a lot of stuffs. Things that might not sound so nice if its in a strict no freedom of speech country. But I spoke. Because i can speak. And i think. Because i can think. I asked him

Why do we have hatred and jealousy or many other dirty things in ourselves if the reason for living is to make the world a better place?

I guess not many people read my nonsense right when its too much to think of. So i am posting it again here. Incase you want to read my answers to these questions.

Two choices.

i actually feel like bebichi today for some reason. =/


tapi i am trying not to indulge in my addiction. i mean because if i do, i'll sleep so late. =p Haha. i just can't get enough of ____________ sigh. One is so romantis. Ada yang dorky tapi memikat hati. then my kunci hati. Haha. sigh.

And aku bru liat gambar cuzin ku (yang sebalah sana) gambar di Dubai I A. and Cardiff. I am not interested in the cardiff part but the dubai part. DUBAI~ I haven't been there long time! Not even transit. lala bah anyone yg kan k dubai inform aku =p kamu plan aku kumpul duit ja =pp hahaha.


esuk tah ky meluahkan bichi ku. =p haha see you peeps.

Keep it to yourself..

Easi line or not easi line or not? sigh.

I have not bought my luggage =p I was thinking tommorow but WE'RE a little busy tommorow aren't we =p Btw i baharu saja balik bejaur tonight. Actually i wanted to go bejaur with Byl and Sahlan but they were with their brothers and cousins and sisters just now so instead i went ber kotak keju di gadong with the only one who is not as anak dara as these people- si gigolo. (sbb i khianat arh nya tadi inda ke fz =p hhahaha! malas ku wa. We talked and talked about some future trips since he's the only one who would be sooo interested and i feel guilty i didn't mention about our go to small island country trip and etc. Mun inda laku ku bejual anak ayam seekong atu ni warung siring jalan. =pp HAHAHAH astee nadabah.

Anyways. I would prefer people not mention in public where i'll be sometime next week before i decide to tell the public myself untuk menjaga hati (inda ku tau ada ka tu orang orang makan ati ka apa ka. mana tau ada. i don't like to hurt people. =/ i'll only do when they hurt me. haha) apakan becerita aku ah. but yeah. but yeah please. although i did gave some hints didn't it? some small island and some city so close to the sea with freezing wind and etc. If you know...keep it to yourself bebeh.

Sama awu bah nah

WE ARE WATCHING TWILIGHT THIS THURS.

Amazingly they bought two whole rows!! Actually i never read the book. I just want to join the fun. besides, from the poster he looked handsome. And i am into vampires stuff (though i prefer reading manga on vampires than reading words with no visual aids =p) BUT YEAH we are watching TWILIGHT this thursday. (nahh bichi puasss? Si gatal ani eh. tadi aku sepatutnya jumpa si bichi jua wa sekali ya tinggalkan aku gto sahlan ya blek tpi rupanya BEGATAL di mall) NO dude. I am not joining your flirting club. =p

Hmm. Thinking of what to do esok. and i just remembered. I NEED to send my library books back. Then possibly go somewhere. But the question is: dst line or not?

ps- Ridha and Zirahku!! Read my previous previous post!!! Sigh. Misses you. Sigh. I belum chat with zirah ku long time. And i read your nick!! Tak sedar iiii nick mu ahh. =(( THANKS!



I want to say it doesn't scar. But it does.

Needs.

Happy aidiladha peeps.

I am thinking about stuffs. Random.

I am still thinking about getting a dst line or not since sms dri sayang-sayang ku di UK inda sampai kan. sasak i. Manatau sanang i bedating nanti pakai line dst =p hahaha Btw mcm kena pakai2 link blog ku ani. apa tu ada forex apa usin apa ah arh tag ku. Tak pa tak pa. I maafkan.

And i am still thinking of getting a ipod or not. I mean i CAN abuse my brother's one easily but he is mostly into rock and hiphop stuff and i listen to a diversity of music genres- including my shinee. ahah. and he always says, 'mana ipod apek? mana ipod apek' inda jua sanang tu mendangar.

Since i am in serious need to save some for some foreign dollars, not that i will spend a lot there ...i hope. haha but for souvenirs for me for you ..you know me =p.

I still need to look for a luggage since all the small luggages we have are unusable anymore and we're planning to bring one-bag-each this time. Besides, paying on my own makes the bag mine and its also for (incase) next year. to where? =p Aha. My destinations are never confirm due to some reason which i will tell when i am in the mood (just a hint: i planned a trip to langkawi and i got diverted and that was the time when tsunami hit. And after a few months of saying to mum "lets save up and go to india" and mumbai's hotel went under flames... and many more) So yeah. I am yet to find a bag and mum adviced a big one so that 'kalau ika kan lawat durang zirah and ridha d uk sanang bawa satu bag saja' haha =p but we'll see. If i am draining my cash pool on food and movies like what i am doing now, i won't have enough for far visits. But who knows maybe i might blog from the other side of the world without you even knowing i went there.

So that would explain the pink jacket mum bought me for my brithday. Usually its just dinner and movies or (plus) swatch but i guess some far trips might be possible. Actually i am not too keen on looking for one but i couldn't find anyone who i can borrow from. But i actually like this jacket even though my brother said i look like a begedil-bejalan in it. The others make me look like an esbok-bejalan or anak ____homeless (again courtesy of my bro)

And then there is the belanja some people because i said so last time.

Hmm thermal socks, jeans and leggings too because some city near the sea might have freezing winds. And gloves which i will buy in that small island country. (apakan) Yatah.. lain kali durang ani cita cita ke india saja. Ke egypt kah. I won't have to bother about thermal wear. hahah. udah nyangku lakastah ke kalimantan lawat maci (our former amah). nada org minat =p

And then there is twilight. Which will cost me $7 *(karit) but i still want to join.

and. Wait. I lost track of what i need to do and buy. Hmmm bah bila g escapading/koryo-ing? =p

More thanks ;p

Haha i just found my phone. Anyways, like i said, don't expect too much after the exam (i mean on msn, i have been out the whole day =p). Went to a lot of places and went back late, the family wanted to watch a late night movie as usual.

Kepada Zirah and Ridha.

Ada jua ku buat dlm last post ku: 'Org2 yg jauh tpi aku tau dlm atinya rindu kan aku =p'

Utk kamu bah tu dan orang2 sekalian alam jua yang jauh di sana =p aku tau ko kali ah yg first slalu bagi msg. hehehe. AWWUUU ZIRAH and RIDHA NADA SMPAIII msg kamuu!! Nanti tah ku membali line dst khas utk org luar negri haha. (btw kalau aku antar pakai bmobile pun slalu mana smpai tu sasak ku). Awuu. ridha jua. Hadiah mu tunggu next yr. I noee~ SIUK g sama si Tiqah kan dripada sama org puteh =p haha. I miss you lots babe. Ku dgr zirah ke Liv ne gehehe And Ridha. THANKS SIS!! Sigh. It wasn't the same wasn't it? the birthday without us bumping into each other at euro classic.

MUL Thanks bebeh (lupa ku thank kau haha) sbb greet in advance ;)

to Ben And Zahar haha its okay (aku pn slalu lupa bday org =p) ahahaha. Thanks muchh! =D I am forgiving zahar that easily but not ben so ben YOU better do PCD + Rihanna moves (with chairs as props) next time =ppppp HAHA.

billah. No i won't be joining kelab flirting anytime soon. I still have some unrealistic addictions i need to overcome. =p HAHAHA! apa hinting. He's just being friendly. Besides. I am not interested in guitar/bass player. I am interested in skinny jeans pretty boys remember =p Although the height is a good gene =p hahaha astagpir.

Owh aku jeles gambar si Bichi ngan Pets and Sahlan and norah j mliat selamat pagi cinta las time. Caya kamu. Wayang kul 5.30 patang wa. Aku bangun 5.15 ptg. Well that was the day after biology, i was soo down about it, i slept the whole day. ahaha.


Salam. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha!

Aku tahu i patut online now since habis dh exam. tpi aku suka bejaur kan =p Dun expect too much ahaha.

My 6 Dec 2008: Appreciate!

Wajah sitiqah bru 19yrs old yg letih TAPI kan bagi ucapan. =p

I had my Francaise exam (nah expose tia sbb next year i tak ambil lagi) at 2pm. Amazingly i just studied this morning before the exam. I knew i did enough for coursework to pass it so i just don't care anymore. The paper was worth 320 marks- 80 for dictation (comprising for 10 out of 50 percent for final exam) so all aimed for was a 120 marks (for a pass in the writing final exam) and ofcourse it wasn't easy. For those i don't know...i hentam la.

AND THAT MARKS THE LAST OF MY EXAMS! I can onlining now =p

Anyways. Like i said i have been looking forward to makan ketam at Kayu Kandar =p GAHA. Siuk2 ku makan katam wah ada tia durang dgn ....biasa.. nyanyi nya and ..... camera nya! TIME KU BEJABIH MAKAN KATAM. Aha. belipat banarr!! TERIMA KASIH btw.

I have been told that my face book is full of greetings and i just would like to say my facebook is almost dying. I can't open it somehow. Everytime i do, the IE gets stuck and restart.And THANK YOU SO MUCH for the greeting masa ku mikin tua ani. As nur petat says, our butt is still firm =p

This is random:Thanks to

ofcourse the family.

Buzz who texted (aha awal ne aku na tau mana hp ku so aku alum balas)

Uncle Keyol (the other kerol)

Islam and Boyfriend

Mizah

Babu Amal (hahahahh ur 'GUYS' gift are too good to be true *melayang i)

Dibah

Dewi

Petat

Norah Jones (i like the card)

Billah-the best bichi in the whole wide world.

Husrin-whose-water-broke yg eksen arah ku ya kan makan2 malam nya so ya inda payah ikut aku blek rini.=p

Sahlan

Amsyarrrr.

(mereka yang belipatan yg ambush aku time aku high menyumbat mulut ngan crustacean)

To the FRENCH peeps for nyanyi the birthday song balik2 sebelum masuk hall)

Aziz aka Rahmat =p

Haris (yg pen nya aku ttapau time exam)

Suud

Adlina

Najee

Riki

NIKKI

Pei fen~

Passerby =p (nadabaa)

The H.

Si pemajal (you-force) Pandi

Kaka Iera

Org org yg greet aku di face book tpi i tak dpt buka la.

Org2 yg jauh tpi aku tau dlm atinya rindu kan aku =p and alum greet sbb aku alum online (sbb mereka adalah org yg inda pernah tinggal wa drpd msg aku time distance close. Ani jauh tia dh kan)

LAST but not least. ahaha saja nyuruh ko ngalih baca smpai ke bawah =p

KEROL pinky (ko ujung sekali psl aku bnyk komen ne)

Lambat kau ah bagi semangat study ah... my last exam is today haha. Tapi kalau ko menari mirotic/love like oxygen awal and video study tarus ku ne =pp. and V4T??! capi Kau tpun pun aku inda ku jawab kalau tpunnya start with 555 something. Kalau tpun kai hp mu sana bru ku jwb (sbb aku avoiding tpun org dri dubai wa tnya sal sum humanitarian bla bla.) and aku inda tcari mana tpun ku awal ne hhahahah and manada ku nangis tu =ppp ahaha. And. bangga la sedikit, ada improvement.tapi kalau ya matching nga baju pink and nari to mirotic or love like oxygen baru aku terwowow.*ku pajal* =p VAIN. Aha. tpi ada T kan ahernya haha buleeeh la. haha THX. Btw aku dpt online dh ne. Jacket mu yg tabal menabal atu buat i wonder wheather. SHHH. And ada kan ku gto psl weekend itu. And hahaha aku baru tau ada 2 (DUA) bantal busuk! (yg mana satu =p)

Btw simpan kad atu. you still have time to give it colours =p


Owh and 2 people from the names i mention above...will be having their birthday too SOON. =)


ps- i am still not over BIO and maths. I will be over it untill i know i pass haha. Until then i will still have nightmares unless someone or anyone can sing and dance love like oxygen to me (OR bawa KEY/MINHO/ONEW/...the whole group ku kemari)

OR BWA LEO KU KEMARI. =) Salam. Malam.

you force.

KAMU PAJAL MENTAG ATU.

Tag 1) menyiku

1. Write (type) your full name with your elbow.2. No backspacing.3. Tag 10 people to do this.


nur satikqah raduazn


GELA lah. Exotic terus nama i. ;p


Aku tag kau kau kau kau kau kau kau kau kau kau. gila mengalehkan diri menyacak keyboard.

Tag 2) membebel

1) Each blogger must post these rules.2) Each blogger must being with ten facts about them.3) Other bloggers who are tagged must also state the rules and ten facts about themselves. you must choose ten people to give this award to and list their names at the end.4) It is essential that a tag is left at their tagboards, letting them know about the award they've received.

1) aku ingin terbang ke awan. lalalala.
2) I kuat bejaurs.
3) I suka makan.
4) esok i menjadi semakin tua. and i inda berapa iski. =p
5) aku suka shinee
6) sama dongbangshinki
7) tetapi near far whereever you are... i am still Leonardo Dicaprio's fan.
8) I have LF exam esok.
9) I am looking forward to makan ketam esok.
10) I lap u.
11) but most of all...i am addicted to _____________________. ;p

nah belabih. ertinya aku inda payah tag org.


Yg sebuting atu naleh ku. thanks for tagging anyway. =)

Becerita /editted

the confession: i am addicted to _____________________
Can't have enough of _______________________

<3......sigh....;p

ps- lapar jua ah aneroxic ani ah. =p AWU bichi i tak study untuk esok. Malas ku. apa biarta ku bekurapak melayu tercinta. jgntah kan bekurapak bahasa asing. ukannya ku apply ke negeri eropah jua kan aritu kan bekurapak bahasa abisdia. inda i menyindir ne. btw. mewayang, ada ku sound tu. mehangout bah LAYANs. Menutong sundayy. I nak! awu i am addicted to E. E is expensive. so you buy for me. okie =pp

BEJAURAN ku tadi bah. No inda ku tido g today.

I am hungry and n pissy and menses i. Lapar ku laparrr. Malas ku bejalan ke dapur. makanan inda da wa. Kan masak...you know me!

************* genital parts goes to jail. =)

Amazeng. Terima kasih siti nur petat for the info. (and now i am copy pasting because i malas kan buka brudirect=p)

Foreigner Jailed For Flashing " Bandar Seri Begawan - A ********* national was sentenced to four months' imprisonment by the Bandar Seri Begawan Magistrate's Court yesterday after he pleaded guilty to exposing his private parts to two Universiti Brunei Darussalam (UBD) students. ________________________ (fill in the blank), who is neither a student nor an employee of UBD, went on two occasions to the university library on November 1 and 4 and exposed himself to two different female students, said the Prosecuting Officer.

The court heard that the first complainant was at the UBD library doing her assignment and saw the defendant looking for a book. The defendant later sat next to the complainant and asked something about the Internet, but the complainant said she could not understand what he was asking for. A few minutes later, the complainant saw the defendant, still sitting next to her, unzip his pants. She saw him repeatedly zipping and unzipping his pants and later saw him exposing his private parts. The defendant went again to the library three days later. The second complainant saw the defendant standing near the bookshelves and unzipping his pants to expose his private parts. The two complainants positively identified the defendant when the police conducted an identity parade. The defendant was arrested on November 24. -- Courtesy of Borneo Bulletin "



PHEWH. I LAP MY UNIVERSITY. FLASHER!! wowowowww. too bad i didn't see them if nooot. heh you will see some *********** dick circling around in the internet. but hmm i guess 4 months in jail would do. wait just for 4 months??

imagini.

A questionaire i did on what type of movies i watch under some circumstances says that i have a

sensitive soul...........????



ARE u kidding me?? you can get those from movies i watch? aha.something must be wrong with the questionnaire. lalala. bnrnya aku na ttido bah ne. aha.

Lakastah kitani membichi.

Amazeng.

I just bloghopped a cousin of mine (from the other side who probably doesn't even know i'm reading his blog) And he just left for london couple of days ago. Well.. i heard about going to the uk thing. But never knew he'll be going to the french Disneyland too. Okay so duuh. what's the difference. Its only disneyland...with french people. And french speaking mickey mouse or minnie.

How far off would it be from cantonese speaking mickey or minnie or people right.

At far ends of the world. Disney brings us together. =)

But still, he's going to paris so yeah. I am envious. haha. maksud i seronok jua itu melihat lelaki perancis (selain dari so gandin) yg sangat gatal. Sigh. actually the point of this is i have no mood for LF exam this saturday. y did i ambik LF anyway

There.. I said it. Jeez.


Btw bloghopping made me reminisce childhood. I miss goldcoast and bangkok and dubai. Oh well. They brought me up that way so i am this way...a traveller's soul. I guess those times i was too young to appreciate.

I know its not kyoto or nagoya or whatever faking country it is to make people betray their words or make people faking pissed though there is no faking right for people (like me) to get pissed... he's right. Appreciate what i have now even if its not KK right? =) Be selfish because selfish people always wins. I like that coming from you. Its being embedded slowly to my mind. Those words said about things bla bla bla bla. are just words to soothe you no? People won't even remember what they say right. Only i remembered so i am going to bang my head on the wall after LF exam. Better write the story of my life so i will remember you. Aha. People are appreciating their life right and keeping it a mystery from us! soo we should all start appreciating what we have now. I might not have si dk baritney ka tu or (i forgot the name you said dude) or whatthepak name there is but i have siti nur pitat and Norah joe. You are right dude. You said lets membichi. As starters.. i'm thinking of piercing. Ears hmm see other places. but if its on the lips it'd be too obvious. Kalau belly tunggu i kurus. Lets make it on the tongue. Aha. mengarut i bekurapak. i knoww. What ever it is beech... thank you for those wisdom words. You are the best beech in the whole wide world. PS- i know what you mean when you say.... we are all going seperate ways anyway. But. T is still here for you. =ppp ku pajal.

I guess.. if you become so selfish or you don't people care less right since they care about keeping things to themselves too right. Like wtf. So bestfriend, i still don't flirt i just like to diss people now. Saturday is a problem so any other days i will make my self free for quarantine. (gue bener2 mau liat and teriak bersama.)

Now. to someone. I am not going to take that Camel because it cost more than a flight to singapore or KK. Aha. I am bleeding cash, i am not going to cut myself with sharp knife. Although the camels are sooo rugged. Biartia. Aha. I have some wool to cover me up to buy anyway. ahaha. And not to mention tickets... to my leo movie. SEE. bleeding babi i.


malam. i nak tido half dead lagi seperti tadi ptg. =)

5th December.

TO the sister i miss.

Cried so hard the day you left. Because you were the last one to leave. And i know that makes this December, different from other Decembers. Happy 19th Birthday sis. it was just last year i greeted you 18th and we turned legal. Study hard in Sheffield. I know you can do it too. I know i am not there with you this time (and next year too. And for the next 2 years too) but lets just imagine we are there celebrating our days . Moga di panjang kan umur dan murah rezeki. Wish i am there with you today..


=( miss you and the rest. lots.


And one more thing ... everytime i wish you birthday there's just this feeling that i am growing up with you. .....and i love growing up with you. ;D hehe.

HAPPPYYY 19THH SIS!!

ps- have fun in Europe this hols. Kalau ada italian hansem ah promote si Tiqah =p And kawan ku si Billah kirim salam haha. (sbb ko nada online ba)

I need to calculate. And budget.Di masa kebanjiran ini. Kita mestilah menakung air. Supaya di masa kegunahan i.e kalau ke jamban yg inda beaing. Dapat di gunakan.


Yatah i perlu membahagi2 kan berapa proportion aing kan di pakai untuk ke itu. atau ini.



GILA. Banjir banjir nya inda jua banjir banar. Nada jua smpai ribut banjir kami ani ke negeri Jepang. Adui adui.

Like a blank page.

Broken hearted.
I felt that the last one had left me... frustrated.
And yet i don't know what to do.
I don't know what to expect.
I don't know if i shpuld laugh or not.
Or cry. Or not.
Woke up at 5.15pm today. I realised i had slept the whole day.
Try not to show. But some know better.
On another note. I feel like betrayed over and over.
Being left behind.
But its not my place to say. Its just a feeling.
Crap. I am not excited.
The last one really left me dissapointed. I don't know what to do.
But when everything else doesn't seem to care..


Thank god i have you.

At the very least, made me smile just for today. And tommorow. And that is all it takes.

In the end i couldn't sleep AT ALL. =(

That's when i stumbled upon (my) Shinee's reality show on you tube (even though there is no subs)


and i'm starting to like MINHO ;pp AHAHAHAHA. Even though my Key to the hati always brings laughter to the group.


Minho's just.....SO sweeeeeeeeeet, =DD *noona T fantasizing =p ahaha

Lesson learnt

I don't really have the mood to update. i KNOW i messed that paper up.

So yeah. I just hope i'll made it through without having to take supplementaries. amin.

But on the bright side. LESSON LEARNT.

And how many will it take for me to start stop doing what i do best- doing other things other than what i should do. Hmm =(

Love like oxygen

I just can't help it xp KILLER moves! its just soo smooth. Aha. and for once, tae min really looks good with that bowl hair to the side. =p AND OFCOZ kunci hati ku =p




PS- i have been watching DBSK's mirotic BALIK2. And the more i watch it... the more sexy si Junsu becomes =p ahahahaha!!! and bad news...the minustry of health and family kah apa of korea said Mirotic is explicit. WTF?? I mean... the song rocks.. the dance it off well kali ah. pastu kan kena tukar kali. mihir banar. *sasak.

Two choices.

This is a post for two days and you are given two choices- you can close this wondow and walk away or you can spend a few minutes stimulating your brain cells.

Nora Joe (who triggered my mind into thinking) asked, what are the sacrifices for anyway? When it comes to 'true' terror, there is no reason for killing. They just kill. But when terror hides itself behind the mask of the word 'jahid'... you've probably heard the phrase "no pain no gain". But in their sense, they take this phrase to another level. I guess they misinterpret it as "no blood no utopia". Even now, someone is probably suffering in this sick world. And we are just here...staring into the computer with a book on the desk and songs playing on yourtube and we can't do a thing about it but to change our mindset.

And there was a point on our last topic in geography "human is the only animal that pollutes"


My point of doing all these-news, povs and updates. Just sharing my thoughts with you. Like i said, i think about other things too much, NOT to stop you from being human because you can't. But to change your mindset. We are after all the same. We cannot blame everyone. And when i say we are the same, you an never deny that even you yourselves have that little dark side inside of you-hatred, jealousy, mischief etc. Everyone are born the same. We were born clean. What differs is where were born into. Environment is not dominant to us, neither are we dominant to the environment. The environment is shaped by us and we are shaped by our environment. Some of these terrorist were probably forced to a point of desperation in their lives that they gave up being nice as that might probably means being oppressed in their environment. Some politicians probably grew up wanting to change the world to a better place but so far have not done so well in it. Some people resort to surrender to their terrible side.

Perhaps that is why 'civilians' like us are born. When people found themselves lost in the wrong path, we are the symbol of hope. Have you ever think about it? Why do we have hatred and jealousy or many other dirty things in ourselves if the reason for living is to make the world a better place? I have my answers... for me...perhaps one of what we should do while living is to fight all these little dark desires.

And when disasters happen, some people resort to saying, "god is unfair" But is god unfair, when He has created you, given you senses, brain to think, nerves to feel pain and thumbs to hold? Perhaps that is why we have this little desires inside ourselves no? When God has done all the work for you, it is only sensible that now it is your turn to make your part. A work that sounds simple but it is not- try not to surrender to you inner dark side- don't complain when you don't have enough money. Don't steal when you don't have food to eat. etc etc. Its not so easy isn't it? Some might say, "is there even a God?" when all these happens. But if there is none, then who created you, or the prokaryotes or the eukaryotes from which you are made, or who gave you the nerve system that seems impossible to imitate.

You were given a a mouth and voice box and two choices- to say good things or bad. You were given a brain with two hemispheres and two choices- good intentions or bad intentions. You were given hands and two thumbs and two choices- to hold hands as a symbol of peace or to hold a gun and spill more blood.

Now if you were to be forced to desperation, which side will you choose?

Will be back after tommorows exam.

I don't need luck. I need marks.

I am a biological science first year who spents most of her time reading other courses for exam or doing other things.

What's a 300 more page to read before introduction to evolution and diversity of life.

='(

I can do this right?

On another note... a few more hours left to introduction to physical geography exam. Good marks to me. Amin.