Its all i can do.

I will get serious in Mr G's class.

Since someone had brought that little damn book everywhere he goes, it made me felt challenged. haha. though i'd rather read the book on beginners for kanji (no i'm still not allowed to take nihongo this year but jump straight into intermediate next year). I learnt a little kanji characters these few days. Its quite easy when you practice. And i find Mr G's class harder than learning basic kanji.

I remembered the most and the easiest hito or ren (if you wanna call it in chinese), awu. if its billah you'll find him at the children section of the library. if its me... you know where my passion lies (other than bio and geo). and by the end of four years...you'll see me fooling around in a few languages..if its possible. And no korean is too much for me.

Still i prefer not to tell anyone what language i'm learning. i just don't feel like it yet.

and fyi- i am not falling for anyone in this institution yet excuse me. I walk and talk with others just like i walk and talk with you right. Its just tiqah's way of being friendly. And when i fall for someone..its gonna be a different story. So get used to my way of making friends and don't start making assupmetions yet k ;) saya tak mare. kalau si billy or si shaky yg buat assumption (and making wierd noises while i was talking to a friend ... baru ku katuk palanya!) in conclusion: inda...manada ku suka suka si Brk atu. kamu ani eh. inda baik gosip2 ani. ambuk banar kmu ani eh- 98% the same as human. hehe.

gomen.I can't bring myself to..
but this is all i can do for myself.

FLEXIBILITY.

When i can remember that humans are spatial actors.. why can't i remember what is space?

hmm. so the tagboard is not for 'chatting' awwh... i was just starting to have some fun with si barak. hahahaha. gila hahaha baik jua nick name ku buat sna. inda jua di kenali. haha.

and some of the 20 good reasons to date a squash player (as posted by the ubd squash club):

-we like it hard and fast against the wall.

-after 90 seconds we're ready to do it again.

-we're used to performing with minimal amounts of clothing.

-we're always open to new moves and positions.

-we like being video taped to improve ourselves.

-we hit from any angle.

-one word: flexibility.

this advert by the squash club posted everywhere around the campus got us... interested /kirai. haha. squash has never sound this interesting. and there is 20 good reasons and i'm to lazy to type everything. Okay one more: we show off our legs.

and another one (last one): we enjoy doing hard things.

interesting right? bah jadi kamu kan join ani.

ps- rina yg bebau harum. bah. aku layan.. aku ada racket dh utk spanking. ;p u stick with ur vanilla ice cream. banyak g org beguna cpr tu d bio lab ah hahaha.

it hurts to lie to yourself saying that
everythings gonna be alright.

Spatial actors.

For some matter, cut and paste doesn't usually function well. hence, its just there.. in the temporary files. Unattended.

For some people, they'll never understand.Hence they will continue to cut and cut or copy. without noticing that they are overloading the temporary file.

have one ever thought.. what will happen when the system cannot hold the heavy load anymore?

can you fix it on your own?

side story- i've read from R christopherson geo book that, human are spatial actors- they affect and are being affected by their surroundings. i still do enjoy geo. and really. an hour of break is enough. I don't feel like i need more.

Lineless fractions

First tutorial (say it with that cute accent) starts at 9am and last lecture finished at 6pm.

Dead beat. And the last lecture was very stressful- i prefer not to say what my last lecture was so those who knew just keep it to your self. jgn gto orang please until i feel like telling others what it is. and like someone said..i don't feel like giving up! haha because its very stressful and i want to take the challenge. (i do enjoy it so much. it's what i love doing.)


I'm sorry for not blogging properly. i am just not in the right mood to do so. and i will blog less often after this. Dr charles was right... it seems that we too will slowly turn mad (just like him). Brown hair will slowly turn lighter and lighter and blonde. anyways i am having problems with my printer hence the title of this post.

bah out. sibuk menyibukkan diri. bah till then.. just listen to that song. No new songs..this is the only one that has been replaying in my ears lately.

Ku coba untuk melawan hati. Tapi hampa terasa di sini tanpamu. Bagiku semua sangat berarti lagi. Ku ingin kau di sini. Tepiskan sepiku bersamamu.


Takkan pernah ada yang lain di sisi.Segenap jiwa hanya untukmu





why.

i miss.

BDNOC might be sanctioned by law?

Read this. THIS IS REAL GOOD.


"The same Olympic Charter under by-law on Rule 45-9 (the Olympic Games) mentions that if the council withdraws from participating in any Olympic Games without the consent of the IOC Executive Board, the council would end up being sanctioned or measures such as fines will be imposed. Now that the country has no athletes in Beijing Olympics, there is a possibility that sanctions will be made, resulting in Brunei not being able to participate in the Southeast Asian (SEA) Games and other international tournaments in the future.The worst case scenario is that the sultanate will be kicked out of the IOC, though any decisions regarding the matter will only be made after the Olympics come to a close on Aug 24." -brunei times.



Shudder. Sanctioned? I don't know if BT is doing this to increase newspaper sales or watev but i don't care. Doesn't it frighten you as a citizen of brunei that the national olympic council might be sanctioned?? This whole thing...their explanations are ridiculous. hah. Don't just release such things to save your own ass. And rano is right. A press conference might just make things better.

I would want to be in that press conference and bombard them with questions (and stones and tissue rolls and tennis balls...... and golf balls or just swing that golf club at them). really. as a mere rakyat the press release or apology does not satisfy me one bit. Lets see what will be in tommorow's papers/news. There better be a better excuse. hah!!

Blame game.

read here.


Its heating up. wuu. I am with everybody else. Stop playing the blame game. And i agree...this is an embarassing moment. Grown ups shouldn't play blaming games. Don't be egoistic enough to admit your mistake. and yess. there should be ample time for training kan with the four year gap. Explain what they have been doing in 4 years please. Don't make us say maju sukan untuk negara for nothing.

i want more. internet bashing isn't enough.

The explanation- press release by Brunei Olympic Council for Beijing 2008.

phewwh. Atleast there is an explanation. Membari marah dh ku ne. And malu. sebab balik2 di cakapnya kemarin brunei excluded wth. And i was trying to get everyone else pissed too. Kan meliat olympic nada Brunei. sapa tah kan ku sokong... Jepun pakah. Macam lack of communication banar eh.

Click to enlarge the press release by Brunei Olympic Council for Beijing 2008.

bah dis is just a short one. i just wanted to check if there's any explanation. Bah out. i have some function going on in the evening. Kan ambil nenek lambak ku dulu bwa kesini.


and to si Nina on something. blessing in disguise? yeah..perhaps its just to make it easier for me. it was never right from the start.

Failed to register? wth happened?!

Brunei excluded from 2008 Games Olympics Bird's nest

Beijing - The International Olympic Committee has excluded Brunei from the Beijing Games after the South East Asian country failed to register any of its athletes.

The Olympics competitive action in Beijing begins on Saturday.

Brunei had until midnight ahead of Friday's ceremony, which started at 1245 BST, but missed the deadline.

"It is a great shame and very sad for the athletes who lose out," an IOC spokeswoman said.
Brunei's absence means that only 204 countries will compete at the Olympics, which officially started on Friday.

The IOC's Emmanuelle Moreau said in a statement: "The IOC tried up until the last minute to have them register, but to no avail."

The Brunei athletes involved are 15-year-old swimmer Maria Grace Koh and shot putter Mohammed Yazid Yatimi Yusof. -- Courtesy of BBC


Why did they fail to register? unlike rano who thinks there might be a good reason for it... i am not satisfied and demand a public explanation to thousands of olympic enthusiast. This is dissapointing. heh. There is a long way until brunei to grace the olympics huh. the opening ceremony was awesome but too much. Too much people down there. It annoys me. Besides the commentator kept on saying that 'darussalam was excluded from the olympics'. Annoying. awu I don't do sports. but atleast I watch. THIS IS DISSAPOINTING. atleast last time, even though there were only one or two athletes...there were brunei athletes. and i thought Brunei's sport is getting better and better recently.

out. My first bio lecture in a week. i am pretty damn happy at last there is Bio.

if only you'd know the stuff i am dealing with right now...the desicion i will have to make... you won't say the things you say.

those things are enough to make me sleepless so don't go about saying that i am ungrateful being in a uni when you don't even know what i am dealing with.

so thank you. for making me even more sad.

Segenap jiwa hanya untuk mu.

And while i settle down and adapt...here is a song.

Hingga akhir waktu- nineball


Ku coba untuk melawan hati
Tapi hampa terasa di sini tanpamu
Bagiku semua sangat berarti lagi
Ku ingin kau di sini
Tepiskan sepiku bersamamu

*
Takkan pernah ada yang lain di sisi
Segenap jiwa hanya untukmu
Dan takkan mungkin ada yang lain di sisi
Ku ingin kau di sini tepiskan sepiku bersamamu

Bagiku semua sangat berarti
Ku ingin kau di sini
Bagiku semua sangat berarti lagi
Ku ingin kau di sini

**
Takkan pernah ada yang lain di sisi
Segenap jiwa hanya untukmu
Dan takkan mungkin ada yang lain di sisi
Ku ingin kau di sini tepiskan sepiku bersamamu
Hingga akhir waktu, hingga akhir waktu

The long post.

Worried sick. Confused. Worried sick about this confusion. And i am getting sick. They said it shows in me. That i am worried sick about one particular thing. I'll tell you what it is when everything is settled. Hopefully...when green turns to yellow. Mudahan tah dpt. amin.

Today i learnt the reality of university life..that despite being in the same institution you don't get to see each other that often. Like Ros, B, Amsyar and Ben i only see them during math 1101 lecture... Dibah and Qilah..i didn't see them since yesterday at all. So don't say i have found a new circle to be with, we hardly even see each other. Secondly, the people i would see almost eveyday are the BioSci firstyrs and they are awesome.

Hari hari saya lihat Husrin. and this will go on for another 4 years. ahahahaha. he is nice though tumpis banar mulutnya ah mun bab hantu hantu ani buleeh. kami yg tkut. haha. i heard he is not talking to someone i know. hey.. stop the silence between you two. hmm its not like i can do anything since i know how that other person's attitude. but just one thing.. just try and stop the 'not talking' routine with everyone you're annoyed with. Its time to grow up and learn how to deal with people with difficult personalities. just try and control that temper. Another thing i learnt today is that most of the 8 of us, the BioSci, klik bnr la with each other....and that chemistry is a difficult subject for us. =/

i learnt too that just being there can make me shed a few of pounds without FZ. gad.the distance we have to rush through is more than 30 minutes of natural runner. and the heat is as affective as the sauna. The food....is...eh inda aku diet kali aa =p to Kerol: manada ku blapar. ukan cam kau malas ambil mknn wlpn lapar =p

And i learnt that i need to be careful when walking with any guy friend when its just the two of us. It seems that when just a friend walk with just a friend, the people around us will start looking and make assumptions.The very good friend might know truth but the people around us don't. So no matter how much i hate to be too cautious .. i must. and i did say that just a friend maybe turn into love so that is why people are looking and making assumptions. But i walk with a lot of them...so how can one manage a lot of assumptions? kan kann. membari sasak.

besides, the heart is only for______________ (insert your assumptions here) =p

hahahahah. this is fun..nada bahh. =p and while aku melayan uri ku... i spent a lot of my waking time reading this book: Benazir Bhutto Autobiography.

Atleast i can pause myself from worrying too much. Its a really good read- about the life of the late Benazir Bhutto, that heroic woman. It is an autobiography so expect historical facts and POV from the woman herself on her country's affair. And she deserves to be an icon..the life she went through was not like most of us. I got it from Best Eastern and there was the a book about Aung Suu Kyi too but.. one at a time. kapih ku. i am not even close to a quarter of the book. but i very much enjoy it.


and to a certain someone who said that i cannot be distracted: don't think i catch your words huh? =p cannot be distracted... hmm. maybe the distractions works slowly. who knows in time...i'll just be drifted away by distractions =/ maybe. hmmm.

seriously upset. =( ='(

Susah hati. Teramat.

Hech two Oo.

Wanna know what is the worst day to go home and found out that there is no water running through the taps:

second day of period.

Argh. hopefully by the time i wake up tommorow morning, third day of period, there'll be water. Screw kotex or laurier. Water is what i need.


and i need to starve myself. hahaha. Thats another term for diet. =p By looking at the BBQ pics on KaF's blog...mcm mikin bepipi aku aa. haha.

Life is full of distractions. CH1101 and MA1101 are two of them

I was so exhausted i slept with my jeans. haha. Anyways, like i said i had lunch with the ladies yesterday. Nina picked me and Wadiah up. And we weremostly updating each other. and si Nin might leave earlier to UK than si Wadiah.We both hope she gets through with the process. While they chatted, i just watched them while drinking and ocassionally looking outside just like any one would do, a normal action. But Nin went, "si tiqah ne ada ne dipikirkan nya..apa ko pikirkan tiq.."

Haha well. I guess i cannot hide from them. was it obvious that my mind is full of something? Or is it just you ladies..who know me that much. There is a lot in my mind and i am trying hard to push it aside. trying to do so by making myself busy.


I need distractions. And goodlooking footballers and unissa undergrad isn't working.


perhaps 4 hours of chemistry 1101 every monday morning can distract me from these things in my mind. and yes. Its a core course =/ just like bio. (a core course). maths is our minor course. everything is fixed. No one can say anything or perhaps drop anything. On the bright side, i don't have to choose between maths and chem since i am taking both courses this semester. hahahaha. booo orang yang memilih major minor. kami kena pilihkan. And my optional course..is something. You won't be surprised. Haha and thank god husrin is taking the same course with me even the optional. Ada jua dangan belari ke lecture room and menangis kalau kepayahan chemistry and maths. i just hope i can go through with both chemistry and maths. Thank god elaine and the rest are in bsc chemistry programme and si sahlan and byl are in bsc maths programme. Atleast, i know where to go to if they drive me nuts. bah gotta go to dibah. Its BBQ time.

Life is full of distractions....but not all of them can really distract you.

In a hurry.

I will blog when i have time. Byl picked me up for the sport challenge this morning and thank god i survived. like i said FZ gym has done less for my fitness level. Were sent home in at around 11 and Nina picked me up at around 1 for lunch. And went somewhere. ( right now i prefer not to mention my activities every friday afternoon and night. Who knows knows. people make a fuss out of it eversince i entered uni life.) And now i have to go somewhere.

But first of all. Thanks to Elia, Izzy Sofia, dayat and si Dewi for the fun time i had. I had fun with you hulks ;p


and thanks a lot dear Dibah and Billah for the promo =p=p puuiiii nada ku beguna promo aah. ahhaha

bah out. kan jalan ku ne. haha gagas naip.

This and that and a lot.

.


I miss...some things.

a lot.

i really do. ='(

I wanna go shopping too....

Kursus kemahiran rumah tangga.

Second day of orientation. For me still nothing much. I'm just pretty excited with the library. And the private room /kirai in the library. I need to use it often bah eh.. so that i won't be distracted from my studies. =p I've never really been a library person but the library's seriously awesome. So peeps...you'll find me mornings reading the current affairs at floor one. And the rest of the time near the 'biology' section. Or in the private room canoodling..oops =p nadabah. They don't allow two person in one room. Not even between the same gender. They do have a room for threesome /kirai. hahahaha. What is wrong with two in one room?? And they allowed three in one?? bah take a form. U'll need one if you want to be in my private room =p=p

On a serious note. I really do plan to use it a lot. Perhaps studies can distract me from the lot of things in my mind. And from missing others.

I am so sorry i have no pictures to offer. Q, R, Z and i were busy trying to look like a serious undergraduate in front of the camera(s). Noo we are not vain. We're just simply trying to give them a good shot for their collection. haha. And yes i am interested in the Kursus kemahiran rumah tangga. kan tambah 'skill' ku. Ikut kursus rumahtangga lu barutah jatuh cinta. hahahahaha.

On a random note. I hope i survive through the sport challenge esok. FZ has done little for my fitness (especially when i have been escaping my natural runner for nearly two weeks. And besides i am there as a moral support for si Kerol Firdaus saja. spaya bdnnya jadi sexy =p). i hate parking at UBD. that is why B is picking us girls up. Sebab kami mahasiswi pemalas parking.

Kepada Nurul Adibah dan seluruh rakyat brunei. Ingat lah...

'just a friend' can always turn into LOVE. =p

gehehehe.. hang tuaah~ haha. As for me. I'll find a friend. Or let the friend find me. Or whatever works. I'll do my kursus dulu. hahahahahahaha. dan yang selebihnya. biar msa menentukan. Dan sebelum itu terjadi... saya akan terus mencari specimen lelaki untuk di eksperimentasi. NADA ANI BA. NADA. gila mun nada miani aaa... concentrate bnr ku ne blajar.=p=p haha. bah slm mlm.

Mahasiswa/i ??

About the orientation, just read B's or D's or Z's or everyone who went to it. =)

One of the first thing someone told me when i entered the Chancellors hall yesterday- 'ko ganya ni ah. durang gengmu banyak belayar.... inda pa sama jua cam kami tu. ko sama kami ja.' so yeah. It was kind of exciting to start school but it seems that yesterday when someone i know saw me they think and mention about how almost everyone i am close to will be going abroad and are already studying abroad. When i think about it. It is true. Hmm. I hate to say. but there is no them in my new school and that makes first day of school lack on a lot of things. I just want this orientation week over and start lectures. And not to mention ECAs. Either Kembara or that Korean culture ( so that this girl in Brunei will not miss out on a lot when the two plans on a Korean trip). but it'll most prolly be Kembara.

About my minor courses.. sigh. Maths and Chem does not interest me as much as Bio does. And i didn't take physics in my alevel years. So lets just see what its gonna be. I plan to surprise myself. Haha. BAH. when are they gonna give us the module? Biomed student have theirs already. The PMUBD people told us to be active. haha and i can't wait to be active. aku mau languages banarrr.

And one more thing. I have not found any interesting male specimen ubd. Well... there were a thousand plus in the hall so there has got to be a couple of interesting male specimen to stalk. But none so far. So i'm gonna lay low. =p=p unlike Nurul Adibah who has got a Hang Tuah among a thousand plus of students. HAHAHA.

bah i still have a lot of forms i have not fill in. For the sake of allowances (that i will go on a diet to save =p) hahaha saya akan mengisi borang ini. Kurus tah ne hahahahaha but just like si Ros said while waiting for me to finish karipap "mun aku ngan kau tiq nada ku dpt kurus ne" (karipap atu exception ba. one of fav ku kali a.)

Buy a popcorn. A ticket. And enjoy.

I watched it twice in the cinema. I didn't want to post about it earlier because i wanted to watched it again and i did. The prequel got me going to the cinema three times and of course i really want to watch this on badly. i give it a full star! because it contains hidden messages between most of the lines and i understood. hehehee. and the second time i watched it was with the gang and someone cried =p hahaha. Ko ne banar. bek plang ku bwa ko liat sepi. Entah entah kau yang teresak tesak.

I'll give this one a 3.5 out of 5. The story line is superb. Brendan fraser is awesome. And the kid actor will grow up to be a really handsome young man =p its just the special effects that bugs me. I am more interested in the Mummy. Its going to be out soon! =D 31st July..i think.

this one a 4 star! i miss Scully and Mulder. Watched this one lastnight after orientation with as usual the fam. It was crazy (as usual) haha. And Scully and Mulder were....kissing. haha would you believe me on that? =p go and watch it. i hate movies or series with gore in it but this is one i would watch till the end. mysteries. and blood. And serial killer. X file is forever awesome. (mind the poster. its in another language)

When its time to rejoice..

Why do i feel sad?

There is no you and you and you and you and you and you in my school. Maybe that's why.I miss.