The long post.

Worried sick. Confused. Worried sick about this confusion. And i am getting sick. They said it shows in me. That i am worried sick about one particular thing. I'll tell you what it is when everything is settled. Hopefully...when green turns to yellow. Mudahan tah dpt. amin.

Today i learnt the reality of university life..that despite being in the same institution you don't get to see each other that often. Like Ros, B, Amsyar and Ben i only see them during math 1101 lecture... Dibah and Qilah..i didn't see them since yesterday at all. So don't say i have found a new circle to be with, we hardly even see each other. Secondly, the people i would see almost eveyday are the BioSci firstyrs and they are awesome.

Hari hari saya lihat Husrin. and this will go on for another 4 years. ahahahaha. he is nice though tumpis banar mulutnya ah mun bab hantu hantu ani buleeh. kami yg tkut. haha. i heard he is not talking to someone i know. hey.. stop the silence between you two. hmm its not like i can do anything since i know how that other person's attitude. but just one thing.. just try and stop the 'not talking' routine with everyone you're annoyed with. Its time to grow up and learn how to deal with people with difficult personalities. just try and control that temper. Another thing i learnt today is that most of the 8 of us, the BioSci, klik bnr la with each other....and that chemistry is a difficult subject for us. =/

i learnt too that just being there can make me shed a few of pounds without FZ. gad.the distance we have to rush through is more than 30 minutes of natural runner. and the heat is as affective as the sauna. The food....is...eh inda aku diet kali aa =p to Kerol: manada ku blapar. ukan cam kau malas ambil mknn wlpn lapar =p

And i learnt that i need to be careful when walking with any guy friend when its just the two of us. It seems that when just a friend walk with just a friend, the people around us will start looking and make assumptions.The very good friend might know truth but the people around us don't. So no matter how much i hate to be too cautious .. i must. and i did say that just a friend maybe turn into love so that is why people are looking and making assumptions. But i walk with a lot of them...so how can one manage a lot of assumptions? kan kann. membari sasak.

besides, the heart is only for______________ (insert your assumptions here) =p

hahahahah. this is fun..nada bahh. =p and while aku melayan uri ku... i spent a lot of my waking time reading this book: Benazir Bhutto Autobiography.

Atleast i can pause myself from worrying too much. Its a really good read- about the life of the late Benazir Bhutto, that heroic woman. It is an autobiography so expect historical facts and POV from the woman herself on her country's affair. And she deserves to be an icon..the life she went through was not like most of us. I got it from Best Eastern and there was the a book about Aung Suu Kyi too but.. one at a time. kapih ku. i am not even close to a quarter of the book. but i very much enjoy it.


and to a certain someone who said that i cannot be distracted: don't think i catch your words huh? =p cannot be distracted... hmm. maybe the distractions works slowly. who knows in time...i'll just be drifted away by distractions =/ maybe. hmmm.