If i found you.... you will lose your hands you can't press the buttons anymore.

My mood has been deteriorating lately and it just got worst. Kami kena kacau. And i am pissed. Macam selalu sudah tu malam2 buta macamani like kul 1 ka 2 ka ada orang telepon den alum smpat kami jawab ya tutup. den ya telipun g den kalau pun smpat jawab ya tutup. What's worst telipun rumah lagi tu. I mean. i am pissed and i when i'm pissed you don't want to mess with me. Seriously, if i know who this person is, i swear i'll make a complain to the cops for disturbance. If the person disturbing is that bunch, i'll complain here in brunei muara cops because they can't have another complain to the cops or one will go to jail.

Oh how i love my life. Full of mental (and physical) adventures. and conspiracies. Hah. Awu i mental ne. I mean. You know sanity is the only thing that prevents me to manipulate things and turn it upside down for them. Its not that difficult to find evidence of abuse or other business related stuff. Sheet. i am so F pissed off that i am now off track. I mean its been since the end of last year. What they think i sleep in the middle of the night? THINK AGAIN.



On a lighter note,

Aku jeles. Ada volunteer arah datalish ke Gaza to work at rafah ah. I know. It sounds crazy but i am jealous. for now. i mean you can't let your fear to keep you from helping others. I can't deny it, i am so so jealous they will go to Rafah. I have been saying about this since tadi.


I want to volunteer at gaza too. sigh.



Mid semester holiday is sooner than it feels hence work is piling up. PILING REALLY HIGH. so expect less entries from me. And expect a dark circles around my eyes and late night asking you to explain to me about maths or computer or biology report or english or geography or mib (wow. that's all of my subject. sigh. reports...) and expect late night ALMOST gila nick in my msn. and malam buta hantar something by email to any of you. No i shadap in www ne.=pp hahaha. inda i berapa flooding cb org

My village's association is having a national day kinda opening ceremony- konvoi bawa bendera sempena Hari kebangsaan dari mana kah to ladang dapan rumah ku. They'll reach there at 8++ am. SHOOT! i must sleep early then. argh.. I'll try to take pictures if i can find time and can wake up to be there. aii shoot. furthermore, Amal is leaving later for NZ at 12noon. I have exco activity too later from 9 am till noon. Hope things would turn out fine. But one way or another....we would still choose Amal to exco =p i won't cry this time lah. no no no =pp

ps- To the people in the meeting just now, keep it low first ah. Wait until its stable to post besar2an.

MENTAL TAHAP MAKSIMA.

I too.

I am staying at Pei Fen's hostel room for the night. Wake up damn early. mandi again. Field practical starts tommorow at 6.45am.

I am in Dr Charles' group again, terpisah dari teman yang i like to tail him and also a huge part of my Bio Science peers (plus our new baby Billah who i hope will not change his mind again!). They are in dr marshall's group.Yes we are a small group that is why i always say "we only have each other". We'll be doing vertical zonation on mangrove fauna on the vegetation. And knowing how Dr C does it, it might be wise to look on to how to identify mangrove plants and i am not very good at doing so, yet.

Hostel is so far so good. I am enjoying the silence because things have been quite NOISY for a while even when its silent.

i have another practical on Saturday too. So.... will update when i feel like doing so. My mood is deteriorating. I don't know what is happening. i don't know if i can handle it anymore. Hmm. to zirah manaf. Check my previous post.

Menghilang sekejap.

Notis.

saya menghilang sekejap ah.


=)

Monday tia. Hmm and just last monday i told my mum, monday tia. and the week before i told my mum, monday tia udah...pastu monday tia lagi. It is monday now. And next thing i knew it will be another monday.

After this monday, i have tests and presentation again.

After next monday, i have TONS of semester assignments to hand in.

After three mondays from now, it will be our BIG week. (and aku lum study)

After four mondays from now, we will be in my birthday week =p Aku mau leonardo. (poster basar leo d cinema atu jadi tah hehe).

After five mondays from now, i will be ber joli (if there is no volunteering for the BioCop.) and i might go to.... aha ada tah tu. Kalau jadi ku kena suruh2...ada tah gmbar tu. (bnrnya lupaku ada ngah merista sal ni)

After six mondays from now, i might be on a holiday i am looking forward to. insyaallah. i do hope this will happen. atleast kerasahan jua cutinya.

After seven mondays from now, i might be in... hmm i am not sure which part. Tho the schedule to be in the capital city of a country would be around weekends. And inda batah.

After eight mondays from now, i might be.... recollecting memories. And key chains.

After nine mondays from now, our first new year celebration without... you and you.

WOW. a lot of mondays to go through but going monday sure passes by like breeze don't they? and while i am busy counting my mondays...i realise that i have to do things for the rest of the upcoming mondays.


Yatah notis. Aku menghilang sekejap ah.

I want to get through the rest of the mondays before the days after the fifth monday from now without regrets walaupun banyak stress nya. (conpius? Aku pun!! macam dalam seminggu ku nada g tuesday or wednesday... mcm mondau ba hari hari.)

aha. bah outs. Gambatte to me. (duii ma. nada org ba kan mbagi aku semangat a =p)

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So many words. In so many languages. The only one you won't understand is silence. It stands for so many things.


Saya iri. dan saya benci diri sendiri.


Ps- inda ku jadi plagiarise. sory meniupkan angin malam. sleeping late. need to rebus. rendam. lipat. talan. siruk. segalanya. awu. i pajal. saya betul betul............. only one of you will know what i mean. Everyday is like monday to me. a very mendung monday. Don't you think so?

The lock is the hati, but where is the kunci?

Kelmarin. 4+ pm. Blek from ubd

Hari ini. 6.20pm. blek from UBD

Amazingly, our finishing time is getting late. And walking to the parking lot gets better by the day with dim and drizzile to pitch black and heavy rain. Thank god for lab coats.


Hujan Ribut. Seperti yang melanda diri ini.


Our practical today is F-ingly....... (plagiarism grade 1. safe mseh unlike..=p) Sigh. But if anyone else melupakan yang telah sudah, ia amat susah buat ku melakukan itu. =( seriously, it was F-ingly. Sebab itulah i feel like sushi lagi.


We talked about a lot of academic things today unlike any other practical days when we even talk bullshits. We discussed about enzyme. That enzyme is specific. Only a matching enzyme fits a substrate . lock and key theory no? (this is the biologist sastera =p) anyways. Ish. the 20% tu ba. and i am not satisfied with a single practical report i did.


bah. malam. Aku kan liat Drama indon. Olivia. i mean sambil belajar =p aha.