Inda ku rindu.

Venue: Fass- Vocal class-competition.

Dan ketika lagu di mainkan,
Terasa diri ini kesunyian,
sayu meresap keseluruh badan
airmata bertitikan bagaikan hujan.

Dan ketika ku di suruh berlagu,
Ku sedar tiada lagi suara mu,
Yang selalu mengiringi ku,
Aku rindu...

Dan ketika mereka menyanyikan,
Apa yang kau selalu lagukan,
Tak seindah sepertimana kau mengalun kan.
Lagu itu tak sempurna tanpa mu teman.

Wo Xiang Nian Ni Men. Ni men. Ni men. Ni.

i hear you singing in their songs.

........

ps- aku beli mic dah~ ehe. kuar mseh suara ku walau inda clear =p ehe. kemarin giliran si dalian liaoning kan menaiyaa. ceeeh. kali ani giliran with love from tanah jambu ne. Dengar tia suara yg kamu rindui.=p=p aku nada rinduu =p aha. and kepada yg lain yg rasa2 nya rindu aku =p msn aku for the ID.

I know i am a fool...

if.

manyageh niga gandamyeon

niga ddeonagandamyeon

neol eoddeogeh bonaeyahalji

jaggoo geobi naneun geol

naega babo gataseo

barabolsu bakkeman eobtneungeon amado

wemyeon haljidomoreul ni maeumgwa

ddo keuraeseo deo mareojil saiga dwelggabwa

...

the drama is becoming more and more sad.

Qam furen.

Walaupun suara ku yg serak2 inda kedengaran (awu... my temperature rising since yesterday. Hence suara oso makin seksi tpi org nda paham pikirnya aku nangis saja tplang. Damam ku bah eh), aku b skype dengan seseorang yang ku rindui tadi. Btw ada ku ckp aku demam kan. Yatah merah atu. cecapi. hehe.

qam furen. =p

Wo ai ni. Please stop bullying me. You are so meanie. I said i don't want to play no more game anymore lo. U dun believe me a. Wa lau eh. ahaahaha. (mandarin tia krg kuar dialect lain hahahah) Seriously sayangku, i will (try) not... because it doesn't seem to be a right thing to... You know me. Aha i cannot forgive myself if i did a selfish thing. So jgn lagi ada dong kata2 seperti itu.

Kan kan ko inda ajar aku sehari sepatah kata kuar dilect apa ka tu. Ajar ku yg relevant ba eh. RELEVANT. =p Besides...yg ko ajar aku a.. . tak der gune nyer pun. haha capi ko a. esuk ku bali microphone. sediakan segala perkataan yg relevant a.

sesungguhnya aku merindui mu lebih dri pada kau merindui ai ren mu a. hahahaha.

eh eh i learnt a new sentence just for you.... =p=p you le ai ren le ma ? hahahaha lurus kah inda tu. cuba ko ckp arh lelaki cute mu a. mcm gila.. erotic tu ah hahahaha.

ni e ma?



ahahahaaha. cakap tia pat si cute a. hahahahaha.

Hj Muiz.//editted

Blayar tah kmu suma ehh. panuh jua post ku nee. nanti 5 in one ne org blayar ah.

Selamat belayar Hj Muiz, teman Bio ku yg inda g meneruskan ambil bio haha. Take care a sana. Sejuk tu edinburgh. I wanted to go to scotland banarnya tapi apa leh buat aha. Be a good geologist okay. rajin rajin belajar! Jgn di persiakan air mata si Pajrini and si Daia =p hahahaha


PAJRINI NANGAIII. WUHUUU. SI DAIAAA JUAAA. =p=p


aku maintain ja. aha.


editted// awu a. panya.. awu aku pernah tinggal d kapok. kenangan ku d Kapok apa nah... kucing kesayangan ku ilang. nangai jua eh. kiut kali a ucing ah. haha kalau ingat kapok tu ingat ku kan ucing tu. haha. (lain) sejak ucing ku ilang inda ku g sanggup wa melihara ucing. and To dibah. repeat after me "sahaja aku berpuasa esok hari bagi menunaikan puasa bulan ramadhan pd tahun ini kerana Allah taala" =p jgn gatal ani dibah. sabarr ahaha. eh tdi tu mata ku masuk paluh ba. ahaha. mana inda batah membersih =p haha.

Ridha.

Early this year, lina left. The three of us were there to send her -Nina, Ridha and i.
Then, Nina left 11 sept, and the two of us were there to send her- Ridha and i.
Today.. Ridha left, and there i was to send her. And now.. no i will not cry.

Keep that green letter yea. I made it myself just for you. You're my sister, i know you're like me in many ways. I know... more than anyone.. that you'll be sad even if you said you're not. Take care when you're there. We will not be around each other anymore during your birthday which is a day before mine. I'll miss how we bump into each other masa bali our birthday gifts. I'm so sure you'll be a great software engineer. Loves you. Loves the both of you. Suruh Nina contact aku a. Mcm i haven't heard any news from her since she left for Notts last week. I hope you'll settle down soon.


Ridha wadiah. My sister and always will be.

There are certain things i don't want to talk about, but people keep talking. There are certain things i don't want to listen, but people keep on mentioning. There are certain things i don't want to think about.. but people keep reminding.

Just for now stop looking into my eyes and say all the things that you say. Everything is fine. I am fine. Why would i not be.

just stop all your assumptions. Others might get hurt. I can't sleep if i think i've hurt someone.

i am fine. That everything are just nothing. Clearing up this mess. I know i shouldn't have... the game doesn't belong to me.



i am sorry.

Scientist are dangerous people.

Chatted with someone. Everything will be fine right? Maybe it'll be okay eventually. And NINA. Have you reached there safely? Contact me.

Since my goal now is to belajar sungguh2.. aha saya serious ne..i present you.. one of the greatest experiments yet to be done. Its a lot of physics. And no i am a biologist not a phycist but still it is understandable that LHC (large hadron collider) is a machine that accelerates particles at very high velocity. bla bla. I do understood what it is about however i am not interested in that. What i am interested is that some scientists argued that if this experiment goes wrong, it could create a black hole on earth that could swallow the earth. They argued that the LHC might be the start of the end of the world. Well a phycist said that if anything goes wrong, it will heat the earth up until the earth explodes. Bear in mind this is a huge experinment.

"The LHC was built by the European Organization for Nuclear Research (CERN), and lies underneath the Franco-Swiss border between the Jura Mountains and the Alps near Geneva, Switzerland. It is funded by and built in collaboration with over eight thousand physicists from over eighty-five countries as well as hundreds of universities and laboratories"

The exoeriment was supposed to be done last week. I think. But it has been moved. Haha. A friend told about this. Her chemistry lecturer told her. For me.. Allah maha kuasa. Only He knows when the end of the world will be but yet it makes you think, that this experiment, colliding particles bla bla could still bring danger. Would you want your life to be risked by something that you have no say on? Just incase.. I love you all. =) aha.

Watch here. here and here.

I just knew that the next maths test will be THIS saturday. And alhamdulilah. I passed the last one. Lucky number 6.

Masih.

//if
I recieved a msg from a number yang ujung nya -136. tdi ptg. Banarnya i tot it was someone else msg panya.. well you know who. Awu pandai udah ya msg aku. bwwoh.
monday goes on like any other day. uni life sure is cruel isnt it. you have to go on even when there is a huge hole in your life. a few days ago i signed up for BNS and BioCop. and i changed my mind about something. I might be going on that rat trapping at gadong market activity. You know... biologist do crazy stuff. I think it'll be best to learn how to be mad from the seniors.

. btw really glad to know you're safe in uni already.

next best buddy.. esok. am i ready? No never am. never will be.

12mid night. aha. just like when i did that pink purple letter... i'm making another parting gift (which isn't the same but still all are meant for you all NOT to forget me) for another buddy. It makes me think. Maybe i should join that scrap book club. Not to forget si mul. Awu you get one too. hehe.

.

If....

.

For the one who can see the invisible.

14/09/08

='(

Sorry aku inda tahan. Maybe i should tell you that

i didn't want to exercise during the last days in fz instead i 'counted till 40' because i knew.. i couldn't count anymore. Thank you for not telling me your departure date until so late.. because i will count days. I didn't want to appear online since i started ubd... because i don't want to spend so much time talking to you anymore.. I didn't want to sing last friday...because, you sing with me always. I want to be angry at you during the last days because... you're the only one wh0 can make me really mad.

And i thought all those will make it easier to see you off. But its not..you know better that its not. so sorry aku inda tahan. And kau capi. Ko yang nangis dulu a. cana jua ku inda nangis.

thank you for the gift. kambang. karang nangis saja ku di sana. Kurus ku nee!! sebab exercise sambil nangis everytime liat gift mu.


Sorry for my wrong doings especially sebab aku slalu marah and buat ko marah. Thank you for.. everything. And ko hati karas..inda sedih?? Bull shit Khairul Nuar firdaus. I can see you when you're sad. just like you were when this picture was taken. Luar senyum. dalam sapa tau =p 'aku-tau-kek-untuk-aku'konon. i can see the invisible kali a.

the rest is in that pink purple letter.

I will wait for my surprise.

If...

siuk ceritanya. cali. sedih. romantis pun ada. I want my own hong gil dong if someone so sweet like him exist.

Diam.//editted.

Diam seribu bahasa.
Tawa berjuta makna.


To someone on lastnight. (you know who you are)

No, its not it. Its just something else.


you can see the visible, but can you see the invisible?
i w m h v.
eh eh. =p sorry eh. dude. i never imagined that what i told you before going home will make you sleepless. hehee. kuat bersedih panya ko ne.

My NINA.

11/9/08


The only one who can read my heart, my sastera and me, even when i never said anything, has left. So now. no one here will actually be able to read everything i keep inside. Now, who should i go to when i'm having a hard time? =(

Attended her function plus jemaah at her house. It was the night i'd never forget. It was our last night together..until next time that is. Plus, something (sad) happened that night. hmm. besides, i have not been around your family in ages. i am still worried. I hope everything will go fine.


Just so you know, you'll always be the darling out of my darlings, because... you know too much of me =p=p


Good luck. Rajin rajin belajar. Jangan kelaie saja dgn yang d Liverpool. jangan kan teingat kan kucing mu saja. Ingat kan si Tiqah saja ah. remember me always. And jangan lupa email aku slalu. Antar ku poskad eh =p btw thanks for the keychain. and and jangan pernah berubah. ;)

Sayang.

ps- BUAT BLOG EH. update kami baa dengan keadaan mu sana.

='(

hidup.

i m...


but then... running running and continue running.

i wonder how far i can go.

Since someone close to me is leaving today, i thought that its the time i'd give their souvenirs from my travels and souvenirs Lina bought for them. haha awu... ada yg last year punya dah i have not given them yet. And i just realised banyak aku alum bagi atu. Procrastinator banar. Bah out. Need to sort things out. Read a little bio for practical. And buy card... still mixed feeling.

That person who knows a lot of me.

Had a great escape with Petat and Husrin. (no i did not escape any class. but someone did)

Had breaking-the-fast gathering with the ladies. Soon, we'll have to wait for another year for such gathering.

Had a really great night out with Islam. Its been a while since we meet or chat. It's quite fun eventhough its only the two of us left. Talk about 'aku suka wax' haha. Thanks for dangani bali barang untuk someone who's leaving. And i really do hope, that small bag will still be there until allowance day.=)

Another one, someone very dear to me, will be leaving on a jet plane today. It is... hard. Very hard to see the only one i share almost everything to leaving. And to think that i want this person to stay for a while, while everyone else leaves...

sangat berat hati.

Salam. Malam. Sayang.

The air

I am testing you.
And you failed the test.


so I guess its fine if its like this.



I want to be like the air.

Tagged by Nurul Adibah.

State 15 wierd things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself.
The 10 people I tag are then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.
No tag backs (:


1) I don't cook.


2) I was told to have WPW. So try not to startle me.


3) When i am unusually quiet, i am thinking.


4) When i put my fingers on my lips (as if biting my nails) while someone is talking, its either i am thinking about what that person is saying or i am judging that person from the way he talks.


5) I have the tendency to buy stuff for the people close to me. Aha.


6) Although i may look like a spender, i do save.


7) The only time i spend money for clothes is when i am overseas. So no, you can hardly see me spend on clothings. And some of the shirts i wore dates back in my secondary years (and now i am a uni student)


8) I have 6 Swatch skins- and i love each and everyone of them =p ahaha.


9) I am an emo. Pemarah and penjeles. And yes i am promoting my bad traits instead of the good ones, The good ones its up for people to see or not to see.


10) Saya tahu sepertinya saya ini gatal. (tapi gatal lagi Nurul Adibah) but no... guys don't melt melt me easily.

11) I have so much love to give =p=p like many saggitarians do. Sagis are romantis kali aa.


12) I love travelling. And you know this.


13) I am a collector- i mainly collect keychains esp to places i travelled to. and they are a lot. hehe. And i collect post cards too. And telephone cards. I have a drawer full of these collections. This is in the blood. My late grandad collect bells. My uncle collects expensive model cars.



14) And apparently i am fond of rocks too. I collect them =p hahaha. si T ani penapau ne.



15) And this is my laptops wallpaper



and i tag everyone reading this post. Carahh =)

asking myself over and over..

Is it okay if its like this??

yea.. its okay i guess. Its how things are supposed to be.

Status: appear offline. No one even noticed if i'm appearing online so what's the use right?