MIA

You know its fun to stay up late with friends at UBD while studying and having our occassional 'iklans' and talking about stuffs (which are most of the time rated R) Its nice to have their company. Exam was aweful. Its always aweful but the great thing is (cross out the fact that i did not know AT ALL a few questions worth 10 marks each) that i did not regret even if there were a lot of mistakes here and there because i've cast aside sleeping and did the best i could.

Regret is a terrible feeling. Thank god you have friends who are truly friends to lift you up for the next exam. For Plant and Animal phylo, i hope my friends who have been studying with me all night long since last week at UBD and i, will pass. Amin. Only god knows how terrible we felt during those study sessions.



Sometimes you think you know a person but then they act differently than you thought they'd be. People act differently in different environment just to jaga hati. I am honestly an open and not so good of a person, but i've never been this open about some 'stuff' (that you'd honestly never think i'd know) with anyone, other than them. Good thing is, they don't judge (openly) because they've come to understand, that is how i am. Mystererious words i am putting here. hahaha but lets say you've put inside your mind that i am some nerd who studies hard and stays in a 'shell'. Let it stay that way in your mind, until i decide to drink super power and crawl out of my shell to open myself up to you and probably dance to cascada at the foyer.


There is more to life than internet (or no life at all since the exam started) so forgive me for not checking my emails of facebook. i am watching new moon before my other exams. And i've got a surprise for people next year.


You know i love you. But do you love me too?

xoxo

MIA from the internet world.

I drafted this way back then. I just publish it today.

You know, i'm getting better and better at this... being MIA thing. Its like my thing. haha I know i have not entered MSN for a while, checked my emails and my blog. So sorry but i have been busy. (if i wasn't, i was watching TV- Glee and Gossip girl) But seriously, this last two months of the semester have been VERY hectic. So let me go through it slowly yes? Since here goes:

Brunei Music Society presents Vienna Mozart Trio. A simply simply amazing trio. Beautiful music- feels like its telling us a story. Thanks to Mr and Mrs Dalman for putting up with my constant sms for tickets. And also to Peifen, Annie, Nora, Mai and BIllah for joining. Next one will be Sudanese music (in December).

UVC joins green Projects- UBD Forest Rehabilitation. UBD area had serious forest fire problem last few months and this project aims to rehabilitate the area, get it back to the way it was before. It consist of many smaller activities. And UVC was there most of the time! Thanks to all who came. You all did a great job. Remember, even a small contribution matters.

Naik trak (iski) to the UBD nursery after collection of saplings.



Soil digging and getting rid of sapling and seedling of acacia (invasive)

Another magical night. Prague Chamber Ochestra. I went with Peifen this time and we were __ seats away from the stage. Listening to live ochestra isn't the same as listening it through any music player device. All proceeds that night (yes all $80,000) goes to Pusat Ehsan and Learning ladders society, so every money spent is spent worthwhile.

Seeing is believing fundraising event. Thanks to Billah's aunt from RBA frequent flyers section for sponsoring us with 10 tickets. (each worth $20) I auctioned for a picture, Scroll down =p.

UVC Beach Cleaning campaign. Thanks to everyone who made the event run smoothly.

UVC members who attended the activity.

Gala night!!



Bj and I with Maudena (the AR of UBD estate and mastermind of UBD tree replanting project- green project)

Note the comittee pass. Suddenly, i became one of the backstage people helping stage manager (as KEPAL). 6th Nov was the rehearsal at polo club, and it ended around 10++pm. Had school the next day (kepisan) and had the real Gala event the next day too, on 7th nov 2009. Being backstage was hectic, it was hot, and tiring chasing for performers. But you get to meet the artist backstage and see them being nervous.. so its cool. Especially, the Korean Culture Club who did an amazing job dancing! (you should see Hadri and Sahlan dancing to korean songs... gila. kami teriak2 plang di belakang) I told you you guys will do fine. Congrats to Sham, to group si Fuad (KEPAL leader) band and TNC for being in top 3 for UBD talent show. I can honestly tell you, UBD has got talent. The gala ended at around 12++

The next day, Dr Nurol, dean of students invited us as representatives for UVC for event with Minister of internal affairs. Sorry for the rest. I mean if we hadn't inform you. It was last minute and they only want 2 rep from UVC. Kami show face plang saja =p and makan but seriously we do feel guilty just showing our faces and listen to the presentation. I guess we biologist are used to hands on work and field work instead of just showing courtesy.

With Bazi (mpp for HSE) and Pn Zalina.

Added to collection, 2 painting i bought back in Hongkong (the other ones are from China and the colour pensil art was from Frankfurt, Germany). I told you i appreciate art.

I know, my work table's a mess.




And Exam. I'm trying my best to survive this (i.e PASS THIS because biology in ubd is just so F hard. esp animal.) I hope i pass animal. really. pass everything lah. Amin. Okay. By. back to being MIA. Salam

It feels heavy sometimes.

Updates?

Well, now is the time of the semester when we battle with our own emotions and negative thoughts about the upcoming exam. While realising that you're getting old, and life is no longer those days when you play carah tiang. Instead, life is about making a difference to the world. Okay maybe thats abit too much. Maybe instead, life has gone from merely sweet lolipops to the bitter taste of seeing how your friends and YOU have grown. Some people grow to be responsible people. Some people grow while kiss-ass-ing their way up. Some people are friends because they feel comfortable with each other. others are friends because they gain benefit from each other. Hey... since when is it this tough?

Everytime i fear about whether i can go through this semester or not, i keep asking, what lies ahead of me. And its only getting difficult. Life when we're kids are like a festive, only everyday. We all are hypocrites if we say we hated politics, because life is one when we get older. There are circles within circles. What you will become 5 years 10 years or 20 years later, is shaped by what you try to become now. What will i become? I don't know. Huhu. I still feel like i have done nothing special in my life. I hope i hope, tommorow, or the day after, i will someday, make something special out of my life.

Hmm. Anyways, the NBT classic Prague Chamber Ochestra was a blast! Just like the Vienna Mozart trio last few weeks ago. =) I just hope that someday, i will go to that ochestra or that concert again with some friends i miss.

And i have been struggling to finish my reports. yeah we're just so near to exam, but theres still some reports to finish. wish me marks for the next rat dissection. I am terrible at dissection. =( and hmm. somethings in my mind. i can't say it out aloud because you just won't believe me if i say i feel that way. You'd just say, no thats not going to happen or no you got it wrong. I did try to say to some people, they just shed it off. I somehow feel so distant from the people i know very well. Never mind.

Somehow. deep inside my heart... you don't know what i'm holding.