exam heat

The pressure of getting a passing grade and excellent grade is upon us.

And i've been thinking, when i tot hassanal's hair is hotness, Safwan of UBDFM hair is more! like punk rock style, i dig it. Hahaha now for the 3 month hols i want to "change" hahahahaha. in other words, i suppress my self in school, doesn't mean i can't have fun when i am not in school. SOOO. I have been suggested to shave numbur 1. like wat daaaa. AS plang banar. hmm liat la. i love my hair but maybe its time for change. tapi aku malas beusai wah selalu which makes it difficult for me to style up my hair.


Hyper.

Talent underappreciated.

Honestly, hmm i am not a fan of theatric songs sang in a softer tone (as what Teatro has done. It just sounds very odd and i just dislike it in general. Stephen rahman-hughes has great talent. Too bad, he's not done much in UK other than the super successful puteri gunung ledang muscial in Malaysia. If you google his name, not much will come out. Even wiki would not tell much about his details. He's got a great manly voice which i think would be my pick of a hero in any musicals. I think, his talents are under appreciated.




Wish he'd do more theater. So more would recognise such talent. Even in PGL, some comments mentioned of how un-malay he was to play hang tuah because of his looks and even he's name says so. hey, close you're eyes, and listen to the music. He's not stephen in the play, he's hang tuah. No wonder people missed out on such talent, they do not know how to appreciate roles.




Somewhat somewhere, when he sings malay songs, he sounds very lelaki-melayu.



He's still my best singing hang tuah.

Work hard, Play hard.

3 weeks to exam! And hopefully everything in may june july will go well. just got great news for june, something to compensate for bad news for july. But honestly, i really want to be in this. i mean the one for early june. If this thing is confirmed, UVC will have a representative to that activity right =) I realllly want to be in this. Hopefully it will go well, hopefully sampai lah kesana and ke sana in june. AMIN.

But not to forget. Hopefully my exam will go better than previous semesters too so i can get a better result than last semester. And may we all pass with good grades with no supps. AMIN. Let our holiday worth the effort we put into exam. Because this is our last happy-fun-go-crazy-3-months holiday. Next year tani ke Temburong for field ecology 2 and also start buat final project. =//


Test test test test test test test test test. Back to education. salam.








and lastly, old proverbs still do work: bersakit sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.

I don't want to go without leaving a trace.

Trying to be on hiatus. failed. Haha. I saw pictures from Asuka facebook and saw this pretty sakura. Sigh. Totemo kirei. i want to go to japan. But japan is very expensive and at the moment, i might resort to selling bulu =p

This picture was taken By Asuka Fukutome of Kyoto University but this was at Nara, her home towm. totemo kirei desu ne. She told me that its the first time in decades that sakura was blooming while it was snowing. Now you see how huge climate change can affect us? She also told me that she's now a master student. Just few days ago Shin from Philipines told me she will be doing masters in politics but she wants to work in France since she speaks the language well. Marian from Davao seems to be graduating soon too. Hoai from vietnam will be presenting her thesis in Malaysia this July. And I saw from facebook, ginny from UK will be doing her PHD. Everyone from ASEM knows what they want to do.

And i? I am still struggling to finish year 2 and there is 2 years more. Yet, i still do not know which area to go to. Well i do have two in mind. I am confused. Nevertheless, here's my activity so far.

The start of Poverty Project distribution to KG ayer with Fbeps team, UVC volunteers, HEP people and BIBD people. Hmm somehow after a few houses i've visited, it is quite an eye opener.

Microbiology. melihara bacteria. LOL. Sakit mata ku mengira!

trip to Perikanan. NAIK BOAT siuuuuk

Kena bagi hadiah from an officer from Prince of Songkla university masa Thai culture week. Kesian! and had FUN in thai culture week

Second distribution to Tutong. Durang ani ke lumapas ne.

"concentrating" in Brunei Agriculture research centre YESTERDAY.

and i found a really nice website. www.somaly.org on the Somaly Mam Foundation. So who is somaly mam? She's actually a cambodian who was born in poverty and was sold as sex slave by someone who posed as her grandfather. She was constantly forced for sex and one night she was made to see her best friend murdered. Starting from this, she tried and succeeded in breaking free from the trade and now she's helping other girls who had the same fate as she had. She has a twitter too btw. Its quite interesting to see how dedicated she is.






"I don't want to go without leaving a trace."- Somaly mam.


I am sure we too.

A place in the sun, i want.

If stress, think of the white sand, the beautiful vista. the people i am about to see. the culture. think BJBJ and be happy.



This is the only thing that kept me sane while having all those workloads. Officially trying-to-be-on-hiatus till exam finishes. I want to make my holiday worth the money i have poured into it. love all.

Salam

The only thing that kept me going.

I am excited for May June July.


Though there were a few things i have to let go too due to earlier plans and money constrains. Seriously, up until now i am still sad that i couldn't join that community work somewhere in ASEAN country though someone has mentioned it to me. The fact is, i've paid for flight tickets and all to another place. And now my life is back on the happy lane, even if uni life is getting tougher and tougher by the day. Atleast i know that i have a beach/ sea and wonderful ocean life to look forward to in June and July. I want to go to sabah at the end of the year. Its been a plan since previous years but apparently, the family has always changed the plan last minute to a more distant place. Hmm i hope July will make up for this.


And now i am officially tight-on-money. I am not a rich person and i spend much money of DVD's and food. Maybe its time to cut that down. EXAM in one more month and the only thing that kept me sane is the thought of swimming with the fishes. We deserve a relaxing holiday. SO PEOPLE NO SUPPS AH!


Salam.

Avoidable.

Did not expect that we'd join the first poverty project distribution =// And now my body aches after carrying the sack of rice and other heavy stuff. Definitely, some were an eye opener. Some house perhaps brings in a lot more negative thoughts. Well it would be when one of them sent sacks of basic necessities to houses that has mercedes and BMW parked. (they are on the welfare list though) which is funny. But some really deserve those donations.


nevertheless, they must've have their own reasons. But then again, remember people, as long as you have the ability to work, you can change your "nasib" and make your life as it is.


Salam

Bsc Reports everyday.

This and that and every thing else. Lotsa thing to do.i try my best not to go online because, i like to waste my time on things other than work. So i figured, if i am not active online, i'd somehow find time to do work and assignments. More work makes tiqah a dull girl? Well not really, i play too when i want to. =p


and if you keep bumping into me i might fall into you. Just a random thought. Nvm. Maybe these works has got into me. Or maybe someone had got into my mind. Definitly its these works and intense one-more-month to exam pressure.



Wake up esok and poverty project first distribution! And check bacteria. Salam dunia.

Ignorance.

No matter how far those ancestry are, you're still connected to them right, through daily routines or languages. You know, it just feels a little saddening that you are losing your touch with your roots. I kinda feel this way. i feel its too bad that i don't really understand the language my father speak in his family's side. Hmm. This year i am 20 and half of my life is officially spent mostly around my maternal family side who speaks in a different colour. This is how we forget our roots. First, we just resort to understanding the culture but not practising. Then slowly it diminishes. The pride that was brought and the language that was spoken by your grandparents began to slowly silence itself from your surrounding. Its a problem we often neglect in society you know and it happens to us but often, we turn a blind eye to it. Sometimes when i listen to people talking in that dialect, or having that accent, it kinda remind me of my grandmother a lot. Maybe i just miss being around them.


Cheers. And salam.

UVC Activity 4: Poverty Project Packaging.

See what the world have to offer. Alhamdulillah. Though the Poverty Project was quite a rush s after Special Olympics, and some of UVC had to go to Old people's home and I have volunteering for Thailand Culture week, Everything went well. All is well. Thanks to dedicated volunteers and UVC and my darling norah J. =p hehe. I lap u.

What started as this:



Became this when the stuff were brought in:



Then the stuff were packed into boxes:




Tadaaa, 60 box for 60 less fortunate families! :

Poverty does exist in Brunei. Stop living in your own luxury and contribute.

Breathe

Its 23rd March. and from the book "make everyday count" by Espeland and verdick, today's lesson of the day is:

"No pressure, No diamonds."
Mary case.



Just breathe. And everything will be fine. Everything will be selamat. That's why i named you selamat. =(

Rude boy

come here rude boy boy Can you get it up? Hey you rude boy boy is you big enough

no wonder rihanna's album is called rated R. But i love! it suits our daily ass talk. Here's what has been happening:

Work time:






UVC at special olympics health screening!



Fun time:




Friends and seafood. and ass talk in public. Love.

But exam timetable is out so less ass talk i hope. Special Olympic Brunei volunteering is DONE. Next. please help for UBD FBEPS Poverty project. They've invited UVC volunteers in this project so please do support.

“Like slavery and apartheid, poverty is not natural. It is man-made and it can be overcome and eradicated by actions of

human being”- Nelson Mandela

Above all. I can't wait to have some fun in june july!!!

Lazy sunday.

NOT. but then again, this got my morning right:

HAHAHAHAHA.

Tik Tok Parody. Awesome.

I bite.

Here's a story, Today i saw the contour map at FASS and i saw one which looks similar to mine but was not mine. And i remembered, that person had a different contour map but because of some problems she had to redo her maps and wanted to pick the same map as mine. I said, don't use the same colour and she said, ' aku pakai biru kali ah'.But today i saw that she used the same line colour as the ones that i used. HOW WOULD I KNOW IF MY WORK WASN'T JUST SIMPLY COPIED! Afterall, the files are all in the PC and everyone can see that. And now i decide to let it go because its not a big deal if this doesn't affect my grades. If my work was really plagiarised, i just hope karma will hit her the same way as she has treated me and my efforts with disrespect. If my work was not plagiarise, then its i apologise for considering that way. Just that you know, there are risks or being accused for plagiarism in this state (with same line colour and all) and i don't like being dragged into any of that kind of shit.


You know some of what i dislike but still try to tolerate till now: people who whine a lot, egoistic people, people who thinks only needs nya saja kan di layan, people who thinks ya saja yang lurus and now, this. So far no one in UBD has actually seen my in my most terrible state of temper, even if you've seen something similar. I try to tolerate and be patient. but just like any animal nervous system, my temper too has a treshold level. my lifetime quote shall always be, treat people the way you want to be treated. If you do something good, i'll be kinder. If you do something bad, i bite more.


I am not that kind of a person.



In a happier note, i signed a 'contract' which i haven't even read with the thought that we're suppose to hand it in. Noob. But i do hope i can change my working habits for better. My goal is hanging by a thread. I told you, my goals were never that ambitious, i just wish for a second upper but if i do get more than that that'd be awesome. I am loving my times with dear friends lately even if what we talked about are always not about education but stuffs like (_l_) it kept me alive even if i don't feel like breathing.

This post is not a good one from me but i just got to remind everyone about this. If you want to copy, atleast have the decency to do it right.


Happy sunday everyone.

Refugee Girl Beats All Odds | WFP | United Nations World Food Programme - Fighting Hunger Worldwide

Refugee Girl Beats All Odds | WFP | United Nations World Food Programme - Fighting Hunger Worldwide

Refugee Girl Beats All Odds

watch the video. Raised in Dadaab, the largest refugee camp in the world, Fatuma Omar is now studying at Nairobi's top girls school. WFP food assistance while in Dadaab gave her the chance to develop her innate intelligence and provided a foundation on which her determined spirit could build success.

And what have we done in our little luxurious world? We can't even go through the most difficult life challenge without going down the depression hole.

World Food Programme Quote of the day: "Nobody wants to be left behind..." - Fatuma Omar.

There i said it.

Just a bit upset. Sometimes parents tend to push children for their own dreams and can't accept that we have our dreams too. And saying that they are upset with what we do UPSET ME THE MOST and yet they just fail to understand that.

Now i don't feel motivated to even study. Was my effort appreciated? I don't know. I know one parent did not appreciate what i'm doing now at all. He even said doing biology is useless. You just don't know what i am going through all my life.



I know i have been messing up with someones temper every time we chat. Why? Just want to say thank you for messing up my friendship with someone.

There is hope. Always is.

Tommorow is the start of the second half of this 4th semester and i know i have been slacking off (considering that i am a second year). No More. I started UBD with an aim (though i may not like it) to get atleast second upper, since i was told that THAT is the requirements for postgraduate scholarship. WHowever, with last semester's results that aim is slipping away too. I'd like to tell myself that i believe i can turn it for the better after all, its two years more and there is still chance. Its two months more to exam and there is still; chance. remind me to learn from my mistake. I need to start revising one month prior to exam (no more last minute chaos) So now focus, even though i have problem with concentrating hahaha.

Semester 1, we were so young.

Trip to Louis Mini Zoo (which is not open to public due to its condition)





Lapas ngantar Mul Blayar ke UK. LIKE. Kurus laa. Haha nanti ku diet. Btw that reminds me aku mencari baju atu waa (nowehere to be found).




Before start sem 2 kali ne. Lapas trip to China. Kurus lah jua lapas belayar gerenti lose a bit kali ah.



Semester 2, and still so noob


Ant in Macaranga spps practical


Magrove Trip to Batu Marang. Pakai boots laa.




At the Rest house in Temburong for Patoi trip or the "lab". Lok at Fen. SO young and searching (Rosli was there too kan=p)



Last day at Bangar- Presentation with my group!



When i was in NZ having so much fun, and they had KORYO. LIKE. Miss those days.



Semester three, the 4 bio practical in a week shock.


UBD voluntary and charity Club (UBD Green Project) Semester 3.

Raya till night time with others.


Semester 4. Real business and a bit (lot) of fun.










Well, inda plang serious banar. HAHA we're still having fun.

We may look like a bunch of people who just wana have some fun, we may have not even reached the top of Mount Kinabalu to even dare talking about reaching the Poles. But i believe we are destined for greatness, whatever, that may be. Time is one thing that you can't recycle, and you its going really fast. But i hope we won't forget the memories, while we're trying to get on top.

Bah back to big dreams. Jangan kacau. lol. =p First step: Buat report pulau bedukang. HAHA. The buat report micro lah. haha

Never let anyone stop you from doing something that you believe in your heart you can do- Jacki Joyner Kersee.

A prayer.

Yes i'm on twitter now and i followed one of my favourite writers (and respected) who not only emphasize the imprtance of acceptance in our everyday life, he also keep on reminding us what the great poet Rumi once said and even the words of Prophet Muhammad pbuh.

And i woke up today, after a dose of OCD-ness pasal special olympics, and read these:

Rumi: mistakes can lead you to the Truth. Ask, and the answer shall be given.

I know its hard to understand but all of rumi's works are sourced from the Quran and so in my opinion, this is a prayer.


Nevertheless, its quite surprising to see someone from twitter asking me to retweet something about special olympics (globah campaign) to stop the R-word. It took me a while to think what this is but its "retard" and we should never say this anymore!

A place in the sun, we want.

You know.. i went to the dentist and registered a looong time ago that, if anyone ask me for any reason, i have long forgotten it. Its my second tightening appointment today and they've replaced my flexible thin wires with a thicker no-i-can't-bend-it-anymore steel wire and inserted spring on the upper wire. When they did, they actually pull away the old wire and my teeth were bare without wires for the first time in almost 3 months. I suddenly feel vulnerable without it- the pain. It feels like my teeth rely on these wires.


And the answer to the most common braces FAQ is Of course it hurts!


For those yang jauh di mata, if you want to see:

(to others, sorry you have to see this. I know, i have big nose small lips and very unattractive features, mata inda sama saiz, awu inda lawa bah. haha yatah inda dpt jadi model atu hahaha)



Special Olympics Brunei Darussalam health Screening volunteering (gila atu panjang) will be next two weeks, and the briefing is in a few days. Hope it will go smoothly. Its the first time too, that UVC has been invited to volunteer for this outside event (which is definitely big) Sigh. I know there were many glitches along the way, hope the outcome would be awesome. Thanks UVC for the hard work. You know we may have not volunteer yet, but even the thoughts of making this event work is a contribution and i appreciate that we are all in this, to contribute.


On the other hand, we will be full on Saturday too! Lawatan Kerjaya to Kementrian Pertanian (since we're biologist) i have no idea if u could finish this Bedukang report ON TIME. As nikki has put it, "you have class on friday too? You poor shits" Like like like. I just realised that i have not been watching proper TV channels (astro kah apa kah) for almost 2 months now. Maybe my entertainment lies with the laugh and jokes we share (even if it sounds wrong) We are the fun people remember?

And i have learnt my mistake, there is no and should not be any "only us" in life but "everyone of us" That feels more right. All the things that happens does sting a little but each step and fall in life should make you a little wiser right?



After all... If you want a place in the sun, you've got to put up with a few blisters (Abigail Van buren)


Salam. Meet you at the SOBD briefing.