Ignorance.

No matter how far those ancestry are, you're still connected to them right, through daily routines or languages. You know, it just feels a little saddening that you are losing your touch with your roots. I kinda feel this way. i feel its too bad that i don't really understand the language my father speak in his family's side. Hmm. This year i am 20 and half of my life is officially spent mostly around my maternal family side who speaks in a different colour. This is how we forget our roots. First, we just resort to understanding the culture but not practising. Then slowly it diminishes. The pride that was brought and the language that was spoken by your grandparents began to slowly silence itself from your surrounding. Its a problem we often neglect in society you know and it happens to us but often, we turn a blind eye to it. Sometimes when i listen to people talking in that dialect, or having that accent, it kinda remind me of my grandmother a lot. Maybe i just miss being around them.


Cheers. And salam.

UVC Activity 4: Poverty Project Packaging.

See what the world have to offer. Alhamdulillah. Though the Poverty Project was quite a rush s after Special Olympics, and some of UVC had to go to Old people's home and I have volunteering for Thailand Culture week, Everything went well. All is well. Thanks to dedicated volunteers and UVC and my darling norah J. =p hehe. I lap u.

What started as this:



Became this when the stuff were brought in:



Then the stuff were packed into boxes:




Tadaaa, 60 box for 60 less fortunate families! :

Poverty does exist in Brunei. Stop living in your own luxury and contribute.

Breathe

Its 23rd March. and from the book "make everyday count" by Espeland and verdick, today's lesson of the day is:

"No pressure, No diamonds."
Mary case.



Just breathe. And everything will be fine. Everything will be selamat. That's why i named you selamat. =(

Rude boy

come here rude boy boy Can you get it up? Hey you rude boy boy is you big enough

no wonder rihanna's album is called rated R. But i love! it suits our daily ass talk. Here's what has been happening:

Work time:






UVC at special olympics health screening!



Fun time:




Friends and seafood. and ass talk in public. Love.

But exam timetable is out so less ass talk i hope. Special Olympic Brunei volunteering is DONE. Next. please help for UBD FBEPS Poverty project. They've invited UVC volunteers in this project so please do support.

“Like slavery and apartheid, poverty is not natural. It is man-made and it can be overcome and eradicated by actions of

human being”- Nelson Mandela

Above all. I can't wait to have some fun in june july!!!

Lazy sunday.

NOT. but then again, this got my morning right:

HAHAHAHAHA.

Tik Tok Parody. Awesome.

I bite.

Here's a story, Today i saw the contour map at FASS and i saw one which looks similar to mine but was not mine. And i remembered, that person had a different contour map but because of some problems she had to redo her maps and wanted to pick the same map as mine. I said, don't use the same colour and she said, ' aku pakai biru kali ah'.But today i saw that she used the same line colour as the ones that i used. HOW WOULD I KNOW IF MY WORK WASN'T JUST SIMPLY COPIED! Afterall, the files are all in the PC and everyone can see that. And now i decide to let it go because its not a big deal if this doesn't affect my grades. If my work was really plagiarised, i just hope karma will hit her the same way as she has treated me and my efforts with disrespect. If my work was not plagiarise, then its i apologise for considering that way. Just that you know, there are risks or being accused for plagiarism in this state (with same line colour and all) and i don't like being dragged into any of that kind of shit.


You know some of what i dislike but still try to tolerate till now: people who whine a lot, egoistic people, people who thinks only needs nya saja kan di layan, people who thinks ya saja yang lurus and now, this. So far no one in UBD has actually seen my in my most terrible state of temper, even if you've seen something similar. I try to tolerate and be patient. but just like any animal nervous system, my temper too has a treshold level. my lifetime quote shall always be, treat people the way you want to be treated. If you do something good, i'll be kinder. If you do something bad, i bite more.


I am not that kind of a person.



In a happier note, i signed a 'contract' which i haven't even read with the thought that we're suppose to hand it in. Noob. But i do hope i can change my working habits for better. My goal is hanging by a thread. I told you, my goals were never that ambitious, i just wish for a second upper but if i do get more than that that'd be awesome. I am loving my times with dear friends lately even if what we talked about are always not about education but stuffs like (_l_) it kept me alive even if i don't feel like breathing.

This post is not a good one from me but i just got to remind everyone about this. If you want to copy, atleast have the decency to do it right.


Happy sunday everyone.

Refugee Girl Beats All Odds | WFP | United Nations World Food Programme - Fighting Hunger Worldwide

Refugee Girl Beats All Odds | WFP | United Nations World Food Programme - Fighting Hunger Worldwide

Refugee Girl Beats All Odds

watch the video. Raised in Dadaab, the largest refugee camp in the world, Fatuma Omar is now studying at Nairobi's top girls school. WFP food assistance while in Dadaab gave her the chance to develop her innate intelligence and provided a foundation on which her determined spirit could build success.

And what have we done in our little luxurious world? We can't even go through the most difficult life challenge without going down the depression hole.

World Food Programme Quote of the day: "Nobody wants to be left behind..." - Fatuma Omar.

There i said it.

Just a bit upset. Sometimes parents tend to push children for their own dreams and can't accept that we have our dreams too. And saying that they are upset with what we do UPSET ME THE MOST and yet they just fail to understand that.

Now i don't feel motivated to even study. Was my effort appreciated? I don't know. I know one parent did not appreciate what i'm doing now at all. He even said doing biology is useless. You just don't know what i am going through all my life.



I know i have been messing up with someones temper every time we chat. Why? Just want to say thank you for messing up my friendship with someone.

There is hope. Always is.

Tommorow is the start of the second half of this 4th semester and i know i have been slacking off (considering that i am a second year). No More. I started UBD with an aim (though i may not like it) to get atleast second upper, since i was told that THAT is the requirements for postgraduate scholarship. WHowever, with last semester's results that aim is slipping away too. I'd like to tell myself that i believe i can turn it for the better after all, its two years more and there is still chance. Its two months more to exam and there is still; chance. remind me to learn from my mistake. I need to start revising one month prior to exam (no more last minute chaos) So now focus, even though i have problem with concentrating hahaha.

Semester 1, we were so young.

Trip to Louis Mini Zoo (which is not open to public due to its condition)





Lapas ngantar Mul Blayar ke UK. LIKE. Kurus laa. Haha nanti ku diet. Btw that reminds me aku mencari baju atu waa (nowehere to be found).




Before start sem 2 kali ne. Lapas trip to China. Kurus lah jua lapas belayar gerenti lose a bit kali ah.



Semester 2, and still so noob


Ant in Macaranga spps practical


Magrove Trip to Batu Marang. Pakai boots laa.




At the Rest house in Temburong for Patoi trip or the "lab". Lok at Fen. SO young and searching (Rosli was there too kan=p)



Last day at Bangar- Presentation with my group!



When i was in NZ having so much fun, and they had KORYO. LIKE. Miss those days.



Semester three, the 4 bio practical in a week shock.


UBD voluntary and charity Club (UBD Green Project) Semester 3.

Raya till night time with others.


Semester 4. Real business and a bit (lot) of fun.










Well, inda plang serious banar. HAHA we're still having fun.

We may look like a bunch of people who just wana have some fun, we may have not even reached the top of Mount Kinabalu to even dare talking about reaching the Poles. But i believe we are destined for greatness, whatever, that may be. Time is one thing that you can't recycle, and you its going really fast. But i hope we won't forget the memories, while we're trying to get on top.

Bah back to big dreams. Jangan kacau. lol. =p First step: Buat report pulau bedukang. HAHA. The buat report micro lah. haha

Never let anyone stop you from doing something that you believe in your heart you can do- Jacki Joyner Kersee.

A prayer.

Yes i'm on twitter now and i followed one of my favourite writers (and respected) who not only emphasize the imprtance of acceptance in our everyday life, he also keep on reminding us what the great poet Rumi once said and even the words of Prophet Muhammad pbuh.

And i woke up today, after a dose of OCD-ness pasal special olympics, and read these:

Rumi: mistakes can lead you to the Truth. Ask, and the answer shall be given.

I know its hard to understand but all of rumi's works are sourced from the Quran and so in my opinion, this is a prayer.


Nevertheless, its quite surprising to see someone from twitter asking me to retweet something about special olympics (globah campaign) to stop the R-word. It took me a while to think what this is but its "retard" and we should never say this anymore!

A place in the sun, we want.

You know.. i went to the dentist and registered a looong time ago that, if anyone ask me for any reason, i have long forgotten it. Its my second tightening appointment today and they've replaced my flexible thin wires with a thicker no-i-can't-bend-it-anymore steel wire and inserted spring on the upper wire. When they did, they actually pull away the old wire and my teeth were bare without wires for the first time in almost 3 months. I suddenly feel vulnerable without it- the pain. It feels like my teeth rely on these wires.


And the answer to the most common braces FAQ is Of course it hurts!


For those yang jauh di mata, if you want to see:

(to others, sorry you have to see this. I know, i have big nose small lips and very unattractive features, mata inda sama saiz, awu inda lawa bah. haha yatah inda dpt jadi model atu hahaha)



Special Olympics Brunei Darussalam health Screening volunteering (gila atu panjang) will be next two weeks, and the briefing is in a few days. Hope it will go smoothly. Its the first time too, that UVC has been invited to volunteer for this outside event (which is definitely big) Sigh. I know there were many glitches along the way, hope the outcome would be awesome. Thanks UVC for the hard work. You know we may have not volunteer yet, but even the thoughts of making this event work is a contribution and i appreciate that we are all in this, to contribute.


On the other hand, we will be full on Saturday too! Lawatan Kerjaya to Kementrian Pertanian (since we're biologist) i have no idea if u could finish this Bedukang report ON TIME. As nikki has put it, "you have class on friday too? You poor shits" Like like like. I just realised that i have not been watching proper TV channels (astro kah apa kah) for almost 2 months now. Maybe my entertainment lies with the laugh and jokes we share (even if it sounds wrong) We are the fun people remember?

And i have learnt my mistake, there is no and should not be any "only us" in life but "everyone of us" That feels more right. All the things that happens does sting a little but each step and fall in life should make you a little wiser right?



After all... If you want a place in the sun, you've got to put up with a few blisters (Abigail Van buren)


Salam. Meet you at the SOBD briefing.